Hi Open,
This forum is a source of important feedback loop for me. I get an email every time a new post is published. I’m not always able to reply right away, but I’m paying close attention to all posts. Thank you for your guidance and for watching out for me. This forum is an increadible source of strength and clarity for me at this moment.

I didn’t think of grounding, but my higher self did. Today during the workshop we were practicing a Qigong walk. At the step down the Asian man’s face in my 3rd eye would intensify. So I paid attention to those moments. Soon my feet felt like they were stepping deep into the ground as if the ground was a soft marsh without distinguishable surface line. The earth energy climbed up through the insides of my legs and up the body. This felt great and stabilizing. The Qigong teacher said that it is a sign of opening Bubbling Springs at the feet. I saw your post 30 min after.

Today started as a groundhog day (mirroring yesterday). I left the house and said “show me”. Then I’ve noticed the neighbor’s car was in the same spot and the engine was running, just like yesterday morning. It was a strong déjà vu and it made me stop and absorb, but without analyzing. In the car my music player started with a random track again, except it was the same track as yesterday! I’m going into letting go even more today.

In the Qigong workshop during still stances the hot energy at the base of my spine was wanting to rise again. I felt really hot and my breathing was intensifying. I’m just letting it be. I thin I’ve learned my lesson during the facilitators’ workshop when it really wanted to rise, but I was efforting too much to bring it to a release choking it up in effect.

The dialog with the “external” world continues. Except the external is really internal and this reality feels more true than the old one. I just saw a clear construction site with leveled ground. I feel like I’m in the process of demolishing an artificial structure that used to be me. And there is no other way. And it seems more straightforward now, I just pay attention and listen to what's going on. Fascinating.

Onwards!