Ok.. So I let it flow for a few moons
What came really rips another veil apart yet again. I see a shapeshifter. It's a conscious effort used like a tool. How I use human emotions or concepts to reflect where I perceive others to be or where I think I am or often to show something that will initiate growth because deeply that is where I start from...what I yearn for even though the mind says it's counterintuitive. I shred a life I built a few years ago but am seeing how I am repeating patterns. In observing myself, pausing then pausing yet again to see what comes up Inside.. I feel immensely loved and cared for and know there is absolutely no feeling, thought or idea I can share if I am now willing to go there also. So much compassion..After I posted those words a few days ago, I felt vulnerable but that was the point.. To go without intellectualizing ... to let go of fitting in.. to just be me.

I often stand on my own as I feel such strength and know realities crumble easily if I do not go gently... I am independent and immensely delve into aloneness..I then looked into Thunderbird. The thunderbird is a legendary creature in certain North American indigenous peoples' history and culture. It is considered a supernatural bird of power and strength. Taught by the Kwakwaka'wakw and Cowichan people, could shapeshift into human form by tilting back their beaks like a mask and by removing their feathers as if they were a feather-covered blanket. Sioux stories tell that in "old times" the thunderbirds destroyed dangerous reptilian monsters called the Unktehila.They are messengers of the Great Sun himself.
I've always felt a deep connection to Native Indians or Indigenous cultures. I used to spend hours traipsing through mud in search of arrowheads/ artifacts. Having conversations.. visions.. I just now recalled many many many dreams where I was flying then taught others to fly. These dreams always felt extremely real...or flickers of past life experiences.

This now creates a time frame without words to express. It's creating shifts felt on a cellular level.
Yet.. Deeply I know none of this truly matters. Is it just another mirage to form a distortion to place superficial value in that distracts or is even that thought a distraction? Yet I know, I feel deeply.. the earth..Gaia transcending
Which led me to the next three words.. Time portals and vortex

Took me to Magnetospheric Multiscale Mission by Nasa which
MMS investigates how the Sun’s and Earth’s magnetic fields connect and disconnect, explosively transferring energy from one to the other in a process that is important at the Sun, other planets, and everywhere in the universe, known as magnetic reconnection. Reconnection limits the performance of fusion reactors and is the final governor of geospace weather that affects modern technological systems such as telecommunications networks, GPS navigation, and electrical power grids. Four identically instrumented spacecraft measure plasmas, fields, and particles in a near-equatorial orbit that will frequently encounter reconnection.. this brought up much as the polar vortex, magnetic poles are shifting. The word reconnection shouts to me as star souls shine vibrantly

Then vortex took me to Ancient civilizations and modern esoteric traditions which believe that the body of our physical blue planet materialized from a universal energy matrix and has a subtle structure, similar to the human energy field.
On to the earthquake I recently experienced.. Just feeling expansive beyond words

Much love,
Erica