It's a beautiful inquiry Jen and I commend all to read it carefully. Because it pertains to the steady destruction of identity.

It starts with the ego of course, where there is the sense of a separated identity. And this builds a complex convolution of inner programs that often work unconsciously. You have to be challenging every motivation and action in order to break past it - even the question, "why would I want to?" Particularly as it means the death of the ego.

Ultimately there's realisation that there's nowhere else to go - and so there's surrender. But surrender to what? The soul is not an identity, but the remnants of ego often build a spiritual identity around it. And you're right to question the phrase: "my soul". Whose soul? The soul takes centre stream, and you are being that. I say you are "being" that because you are NOT that. You have become the Seer experiencing as an individual soul.

So who is steering in the direction of soul? It depends on the level of soul integration. After realignment, GATEWAY2, the balance of consciousness shifts in favour of the mainstream of soul. But there's still the density of ego to breakthrough. At realignment there is surrender to the soul, and so the shadow aspect of self realises it's time to let go. So this would be the part, which recognising its separation, then steers in the direction of the soul.

Later on, when the ego has more or less completely gone and only fragments remain, the question then is, 'who' now is guiding the show? How does that happen if there's no identity? Well, there still is personality, which we may call the soul-ray-harmonic, that plays in a particular way in given circumstances depending on the individual harmony. Within that is the ray 3, the interpreter, which naturally picks up the flow, interprets the flow of events through synchronicity, and attunes the sense of direction that's being channeled and guided. It's the antenna so to speak.

This is why I often use the surfer analogy. The surfer is not directing the wave. But an aspect of his consciousness is attuning to the wave. The better the surfer, the less methodical this is and the more intuitive.

It's utterly miraculous!

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