I'm with you, guys! This song expresses what I'm feeling now:

"Dream In My Head"

I got a dream in my head
just waiting for the day
just waiting for the day to be born

I got a seed in my hand
just looking for a way
just looking for a way to grow strong

And I crossed the water
I crossed the land
I let other people lead me blind
and I searched for answers
wanting to find
a way to reveal what lies behind

I have the strongest feeling that I should try
I got to know myself, now I could cry
this is the end of pretending, now I know why
I had to lose my shell, I no longer try to hide

I've got a story to tell
just waiting for the day
just waiting for the day to be told

I got this anger and pain
just waiting for my shame
just waiting for my blame to get old

I saw some children playing with guns
I can't believe what we've become
And I found some letters, written by god
but they were signed with our own blood

And I have the strongest feeling that I decide
I got to know me better, now I could die
this is the end of the way that led me to lie
now I might lose myself, but no longer need
no longer need, no longer need
I no longer need to hide

M