I have recently faced some physical challenges. It's not the physical that was the real challenge, but the mind that constantly intervened with the need for a resolution. It was screaming at times. But I knew to sit in the uncertainty and unravel the constriction. It came to a point where I was inviting more of the challenges as each of the unravelings revealed a deeper aspect of myself—I'm not physical, and it's better to set down the baggage than to carry it around, whatever the consequences of that might be. I think when we come to that point, it's the most empowering place. It is the freedom to know oneself beyond the physical and not be owned by it. Yes, the subconscious density keeps pulling me back into it, but somehow the faint memory of the knowing stays still deep in my being to access at all times. How can I keep centering in it? —keep opening up wherever I identify with the physical. Not that there is a need to intend it of course; the journey will naturally reveal the situation.

Somehow the mind keeps forgetting - it makes it about the outcome rather than the journey. It makes it about the creation rather than the process of unraveling and emergence itself. Maybe it takes a million times of falling and getting back for this to be an embodied realization. All the while, new qualities of beingness - patience, persistence, trust, and deeper divine connection.

As you rightly say - The 3D world is no doubt pervasive.

Can one be in the 5D flow at all times if there's still a belief that the physical is going to satisfy them? What is the truth in this? I think the last few days I saw a deep recurring pattern in me - one of extremism - either renunciation of the physical or fully reveling in it. Possibly a karmic pattern of past spiritual disciplines. Yet the realization comes: physicality can be fully enjoyed when it is given in the flow! The mind can't predict or intend this. I have learned today that there is some blocking layer in the crown from this karma.

I'm not sure if you experienced this Open. Maybe one can call it the Pain of existence. There is a part of me that feels tired of this game at times and just simply wants to give up and rest. Not that giving up would deliver any sense of fulfillment that's being searched for. I think this tiredness is more at the level of the mind, which wants to stop inquiring and seeking. Maybe there is a fear that if I stop, then I may get lost. I suspect there is an aspect of perfectionism that is tied to the above inquiry - an attachment to purity and perfection, even though I recognize the journey as one of infinite growth and realignment. This line stood out from one of your articles. "Surrender the need for improvement, yet watch how improvement can naturally happen without effort.".

Vimal