Thanks open. I have taken steps and found the lanscape move in that direction with the support that i need with in the line of work that im doing. But this energy/feeling of not wanting to continue has been there for more than a year now. I want to stop efforting for the things that doesnt matter to me. I have learned what i needed to learn , its time to let these go. I could work on something else within me. Whatever steps i take its the same thing over and over again. Having to meet all expectation and getting fired for not meeting it. I think i have stopped progressing. I have once jumped into the heart of uncertainity to be in this space now. While posting i also get the part of me wanting change in these feelings but not what i have created in my reality. It wants to cling on to this certainity and yet wants to feel differrent