Hey Jami,

Greetings

Karmically I see some life times where you kind of went through the motions of life. Where everything was kind of okay, resourced and supported, but not the right kind of 'nutrients' to fully unleash key aspects of soul. This will build up karmic layers, which will relate to an aspect of truth - a distortion of truth. So when we touch that aspect of truth - contenment in this case - it can also fire off the layer of 'going through the motions'.

So the key would be to allow yourself to be in the numbness. Not to try to get rid of it, and especially not to write over it with something positive, or something that a spiritual identity would think it SHOULD be - like being able to appreciate nature for example. So look at the flower, but if you feel numb, then keep feeling numb. Let yourself be in that detached state, but all the while observing and feeling into it.

Other triggers might then pop up - like having wasted time, or not having fulfilled oneself. Or the pointlessness of life. That's okay. If they want to come up, let them and express with them. Let it all move. Then the layers of karma will activate and breakdown.

Do let me know how it goes.

Much love

Open