Thankyou. So maybe if I describe a circumstance - yesterday my partner said he was coming to visit. Initial reaction was I didn't want him to that I had planned a meditation only free bit of time was exactly when he wanted to come . However I didn't say this to him as we hadn't seen each other much. Today I have a sore throat and feel exhausted - should I have made myself become one with the feeling I didn't want him to come ? Or did I just fail to express my needs and ended up messing up throat energy ? I feel am ill - is this a physical tightness then ? Am not sure which bit of all this I need to work with:) was the flow for him to come but internally I resisted this or was it to say don't come? I feel difficulty in "being a partner" can't handle living together , sometimes don't like expecting to spend time together when he feels like it and I don't . Feels imprisoning - so this is a stuck point that I need to work with ? There's so many other aspects in both our lives there almost no time to be together then if one partner doesn't feel like getting together it causes an issue. Feels might be easier to be a hermit! Thanks so much for taking time with me - this will "click" soon am sure blessings Elaine
Ps will purchase book suggested ASAP