Hi Rodrigo,

Greetings and welcome to Openhand - you are welcome here :-)

What you describe in being with a family who don't support you is very common for people in this community. Many people who truly step onto the spiritual path find themselves in environments that don't support their feelings and actions. It's a challenge indeed - but at the end of the day, it's about YOUR spiritual mastery. No one can walk the path for you. No one can do it for you. If your beliefs, feelings and truth are tested by those around you, then I see it as a good thing - because it causes you to question what's really real for you and to work into that.

There has to come a natural commitment to the path, that wells up from inside of you, so that it doesn't matter what others think. The only way to get to this point, is to keep exploring within, keep inquiring. If you slip from the ways that you know best serve you, if you close down and 'go to sleep again', then at the point you catch yourself, ask, "does this kind of living really serve me?". Inquire into that. Keep looking at the situation and asking yourself what really serves.

There will come a point where you realise that living in the illusion serves no one - not you, nor those around you. At this point there comes a commitment to following the ways that you can feel in your heart, no matter what others around you may say.

Wishing you well

Open *OK*