Hi Rodrigo

I really feel what you are saying. Yes living consciously amongst family who don't have the slightest idea about it can be challenging. Im doing the same and i'm with you. Challenging as it is i also think it can be a good thing. Because it's exactly these challenges that causes us to confront our inner demons and ascend. It would have been a whole lot easier to meditate in the top of a mountain and ascend. But now you wouldn't see yourself in others. The people close to us whether family or friends can show us where we get tight and in need of an outcome. They are showing 'us' the conditioned programming that has been built in 'us' from childhood and its exactly these which limits us. When you start to question these programming and make conscious choices with acceptance and without needing an outcome from any situation then you find that things get easier and you will be much more at ease with them. I used to give spiritual lectures to my mother but it was all an attempt to change her but when i accept myself as im i can accept them as exactly as they are. And i think this is the greatest gift we can give to them. To give you another example i have always considered my mother as the special one amongst others. This is a distortion as it brought forward a lot of conditioned programming that happens between a mother and child like need for attention , validation etc. But if I can sit in my own space without any need for external validation I find that this distortion can change without any effort from me. And it's likely the other peson changes too. I think it's ok to be in the illusion if you can watch yourself in it as often as you can. Then you will see you didn't have to change it at all. I say this because when I see myself in a drama there is a tendency to change it according to what's spiritually correct - to be all peaceful for instance . This is self defeating because it's not so much how the illusion changes but the way i see it. So if i summon the will to observe myself in the drama no matter how distorted it is with persistence then finally I start to make aligned choices.

Best wishes for your unfolding :)

Vimal