Great article and videos Open and fantastic video production Trinity! =)

The creative process has been having a shake down here. I am exploring some new ways for me to share and kind of go out on a limb in an independent venture...as I give energy to that and feel excitement around it, I am drawing circumstances around me that leave no time to actually commit attention to the "how" of what I feel to do. In the past I have allowed that to put me off of moving forward and when things clear up, the energy has dissipated. So I am taking care of the little fires that are going off (kids with broken bones and illness, etc) and still keeping an eye on that inspiration, giving it attention - staying open to how that wants to develop.

Over the last few days, I have noticed changes taking place in movement/yoga/dance - all of it shifting into a unique moment to moment expression - just really trusting the way the body feels to move, to breathe, to make sound. The breath is supporting me greatly in connecting to the world in a way that it feels like I can feel things to a greater or lesser degree depending on where the attention is and the fullness of the breath...loving that - like a dial on the exposure. I wonder where control comes in on that...but for now it feels amazing to breathe fully in the presence of loved ones and nature and suddenly I am here more and I feel the depth of them more as well. Playing with that...

Curiously, I have also been drawing mandalas...without meaning to go draw a mandala hahaha, it just starts with a point and then each creation reveals itself one stroke at a time. There is no pressure, there is no need for it to look any particular way, just one line and then the next and then I see it in it's fullness and it's just like wow! =)

It feels like the experience is helping to remind me to just make that first stroke and see what that creates and then the next strokes comes.

In Seattle I found a pair of silver keys on a ring, both marked with the word "Defiance" - days later in meditation I found a starfish and the word "rebel" ....the key is defying the conditioned ways of being/creating (or perhaps also it's pointing to identity defying or rebelling against the soul's path through gateways.

Well, either way, I am listening best I am able =) ...Just not letting the family needs give me an excuse to not express me fully - as I have done in the past. Those fires in my life must be a creation from my own doubt around what I have to share/my value "out there" in the world. I will keep dancing through the fires and letting me come through!!

Love you all, Jen