Open,

After receiving your newsletter today, I felt to add a few comments in this thread. Since stepping up and out to act on my passion and what feels aligned and near and dear to my heart, I am indeed manifesting more resources: financial, people-wise, angelic, and cosmic! But it's not easy by any means. This great adventure is taking me into those places where I have disempowered myself and excluded 'moi' as a unique spark of the divine with gifts to offer than no-one else can. I have had countless experiences in my life where my voice was suppressed, ignored, and disrespected. During those times I would often retreat into myself and bury my feelings of anger, sadness, fear, rejection, and abandonment. Cloistering myself in victimhood. Feeling defeated.

I am, once again, manifesting similar experiences although to a lesser degree so I'm aware I have released some of the distortion but still need to go deeper. Yesterday, I asked Divine Benevolence to show me the way forward as I was about to pull a Tarot Card since I was feeling discouraged and felt like escaping to a monastery or nunnery (egads! why am I not over that one?!). So I pulled a card called Commencement, which is an aspect of the Emperor Archetype. My inner emperor is a do-er and go-getter, so I felt inspired to blaze on. I have a strong manifesting inner drive and am naturally inclined to act. I am also gifted with the ability to process information, connect the dots holistically, and 'vision' the way forwards in a lightening fast manner. That can't be easy for those who don't have this ability. Some feel threatened and want to shut me down. There's a fine balance between expressing a blend of ray 1 warrior energies and ray 4 diplomat energies. That is part of my learning now. I don't always get it right. Also, when to surrender and when to not accept what's going down. That's a tricky one because it can lead to simply giving up when the going gets tough when I'm actually being invited to find the courage to stay the path. When does one walk away? When does one keep going? The Universe is always speaking to me in signs and synchronicity so I know I am not alone. I just need to pay attention to how it's speaking to me and and to trust what's being invited. How to be. How to act.

I feel my passion to manifest social justice for others is about being just and true to who I am as a unique expression of the divine. These days, I am witnessing expressions in the outer world of how I'm not being true and just to myself. I'm being invited to empower myself and transcend beyond. I used to think that everything would easily and magically fall into place if I acted on what felt right and aligned. Instead, I'm being led down a path of experiences where I've disempowered myself. This journey to wholeness is hard. I'm giving myself lots of breaks so I don't burn out. I find the breakthrough, breathing meditation to be very helpful. I do feel peace and harmony when I'm doing it. And I do believe it will translate to more experiences of outer harmony as I go. I'm so grateful to have my soul family to turn to. Thank you Openhanders. Thank you, Open.

x Cathy