I can connect with people so far and then theres a line and no one can come closer. I've heard it said that its normal for empaths that have been through a childhood trauma that the gift can be turned into a survival mechanism to keep potential danger at bay. They way I've built the system means Im usually out of the way of things like feedback loops or syncronicities before they happen or else I witness the syncronicity but soemhow because it doesnt record as relavant to my survival I cannot feel the full range of emotions it creates immediately. I need to focus strongly to feel them as there are many layers of distractions around them. At this point not feeling is more painful than feeling anything including pain
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rME4K9GOMmU