9 Step Spiritual Healing Process for dealing with Karma in our Ascension

Dear Open, Rich, Megha,

thank you so much for your stepping in and bringing up so many aspects of responsibility and authenticity.

Throughout many lifetimes i was what i call "the ever persecuted mystic", always carrying secret knowledge and consequently being in trouble a lot. I feel that standing up to my authentic self and shining my full light is something that creates tension with all these past lifes, where i would have endangered myself.

I see clearly now that everyone is responsible for their healing process and that i can hold the space and assume the "responsibility" - by living in my heart - for the smooth processing of karma. However, i do not look at taking this kind of responsibility as a burden anymore but much more as a divine privilege that i am humbly willing to accept. That exploration feels very liberating.

And all this for my birthday :) a truely magical present. Much love from Africa.

Hi Open and everyone,

I seem to be in a brief phase of realignment where there are more aligned out situations manifesting for after processing some stuff. However, there are still ongoing Karmic distortions - they seem to come in waves.

For me there seems to be a fair bit of karma associated with Sirius at the moment.

Firstly, I totally resonate with what Megha said in another thread about not being heard. Being ignored has been a major button pusher for me. As has been rejection of my ideas if I can clearly see that someones pattern is causing them suffering or is not aligned.

And this ties in with another Karmic exploration - that of control. One specific situation as an example. We are trying to teach my 7 year old daughter a few basic table manners. The 'problem' is that the way she eats she ends up with food all over her face, over the table, her clothes and often on the floor. Yet she is stubbornly refusing to change any of her habits because they are comfortable for her. I can see that I have a need to control the situation and to impose a reality onto her. Ultimately I can see that there is no need for her to change if she is happy with getting everything messy. However, it triggers some kind of parental responsibility to show her - whats coming up now is 'if I don't show her then she won't learn because I doubt anyone else will make the effort'.

So this also leads into an emotional need to be a part of the family unit. As I've separated from my partner in the last year, there has been a feeling of being emotionally 'cast aside'. It's also reflected in my reaction when the kids don't want me near them (especially if I'm not able to see the reason) or in both my ex-partners and my kids apparently not caring whether I'm there or not.

There are other things - as I said a lot coming up at the moment - but I'll leave it at that for now.

Rich

Hi Thomas,

You said:

The same with the refusal of fully unfolding the angelic wings and the subsequent pain in the back, where they are attached - that's because I make myself smaller than I actually am. My ego (or is it really the soul?) prefers to stay small and unimportant, that's safer. Is that being afraid of arrogance? Being scared that my future success will go to my head? I have the idea that i've had great power in another life and did not use it in a responsible way, costing me my life. Now there is the avoidance and lack of acceptance of my true self with all its powers.

I can certainly relate to this. I have exactly the same pain in the back and have had the same explorations around using the power I have. To your question about whether it's the ego or the soul that prefers to stay small and unimportant - I would reflect to you that perhaps you can find both in this. If you're attached to this and it's bringing up tightness and fear to unfold your wings then sure, that's something we could call ego and can be let go of. However, I would say there's also a deeper truth behind it. Perhaps you can explore expressing your power while still remaining humble? Be careful with this because 'being humble' can also become an ego identity. But if you can drop the tightness around being in your power, and any need for approval from others, then perhaps being humble will arise naturally.

Something else to explore would be to ask the question, 'what is your natural expression?' and then, 'if this is expression arises naturally, without being forced, then what need would you have to either elevate yourself or put yourself down?'

If I may also share a brief article on responsibility I wrote some time ago. I hope it helps: http://www.comebacktothesource.com/articles/are-you-responsible-for-other-peoples-suffering

Best wishes,

Richard

I am so with you Thomas ! I often feel the surge of power when I am being myself that is often usurped by needing to become smaller as I ear how big ,influential I know it's possible for me to be. I need to remind myself recurrently to be authentic whether I am perceived either larger than life or not .

Deep love through the ether !

Megha

Hey Open,

My goodness, there is an inner avalanche going off with what you said. I think i intelectually understand what you mean, holding space is something i really like to do for others. However, internally the word 'responsibility' rings loudly and i think this excavated the karma that is now presenting itself in plain sight.

I am afraid to accept myself in my true size because I know inside that I am more than I am willing to admit. I know that I have a big life plan with a lot of responsibilities and at a rational level I know well that I can handle it, get closer step by step and have a decent amount of time at my disposal. The same with the refusal of fully unfolding the angelic wings and the subsequent pain in the back, where they are attached - that's because I make myself smaller than I actually am. My ego (or is it really the soul?) prefers to stay small and unimportant, that's safer. Is that being afraid of arrogance? Being scared that my future success will go to my head? I have the idea that i've had great power in another life and did not use it in a responsible way, costing me my life. Now there is the avoidance and lack of acceptance of my true self with all its powers.

Does that make sense?

Hi Open,

awesome to hear that there is a lot of Energy going on in Byron Bay. There are so many karmic themes coming up in the last couple of months that i can barely keep up with treating them. It's like the floodgates are wide open and Karma is just pouring in wanting to be released.

My Situation here in Mali is giving me lots of opportunities for growth, as some of you know, i do actually construct a house which possibly could in future serve as a retreat Center something connected to healing. I know this is my purpose.

However, the more i advance with my healing skills, the more it becomes obvious to me that somewhere deep down inside i am scared of and hesitant (or doubting?) doing healing work, and feel like always being insufficiently prepared or not yet ready yet to work directly with human beings. I know from recent experciences that i can do powerful hands on healing and am able to look at others karma.

Now i am asking myself, is this coming from a lack of self-confidence or might i have had issues with the abuse of power in another life?

Thanks so much for this timely offer and have a great time in Autralia.

heartfelt greetings form Mali,

Thomas

Thanks Open,

Coming from a Buddhist oriented background and having practised and academically studied Vipassana oriented approaches I found that the 5 Gateways offer an experiential and accessible form of inner-outer inquiry that can also be found (perhaps and sometimes verbalised slightly differently) in other 'spiritual' traditions.

For example, the kundalini phenomenon. I couldn't find anything relevant in the Theravada tradition - as yet - I am speaking with a senior teacher soon about it but found a lot in Tibetan tradition. There, they call it 'Tummo'. Very interesting. Along similar lines, I have found parallels for other Gateways in the Zen tradition.

It's very helpful and re-assuring to know that there is a guided inquiry in the 5 Gateways that is - this is important - accessible and clear for all people to take in. Often, this is not the case in more complex and loaded with cultural baggage traditions and approaches.

Of course, I am still working my way through it all and I find it very exciting!

With metta,

aspasia

Such a fascinating thread this is ! I have a question . There is someone at work I believe I have a deep karmic relationship with . His energy is quite dense but I feel the undeniable pull in my heart chakra that I have come to recognise as the calling card of karmic relationships . I once had a dream in which I was an oracle in Greece and he was the son of the Queen . I believe she too is incarnated as my boss at work( she is very maternal towards this man too) . With work I am able to actually feel into the energy body between us . It is dark and dense energy and this person is extremely shut down . This is a very challenging interaction as I seem to either shut down (so as not to feel the intensity ) or get disturbed with various chakra sensations activated . We are both married and so he is not available to me to work karma with in a third dimensional sense .
Since the only way out seems to be through ,I have really had to up my game :) . Thanks to the weird sidetrack my life has taken ,I am editing a lot more and have been spurred to do a lot of soul searching . Disengagement still eludes me though . Any insights are most welcome .

Hello!

First of all, reading this was very helpful. Thanks!

Open talks about processing karma that arises in a given ordinary situation. But can I intentionally sit down and process karma from past memories that I associate with my current limiting behaviours? If so, I have these questions:

1) When I know it's enough? I tried to follow these steps yesterday when intentionally confronting a memory from my childhood and I felt good and somewhat relieved. But how can I tell if this karma was fully processed? You know, I'm still on the beginning of my journey, so I don't have enough sensitivity to dig deep in my feelings (actually, I struggled a bit to shut up my mind chatting). Should I repeat the regression to this memory to reinforce the release?

2) Is it recommended to do this intentional cleaning as a daily routine? Yeah, I know that as I walk the Path my 'crap' gradually gets cleaned... but since I don't have many hours at my disposal to meditate, doing this may speed up the process, right? (of releasing karma)

Thank you.

*and sorry in advance for any english mistakes*

I will keep you all posted on developments!!!! Okpani

Hi Okpani and Wynde,

I'm really happy that you resonated. And thank you for the kind words. Let us know how you get on Okpani!

Richard

Use the music, sing it, play it, be it!! Be on Fire Opkani!!!

My go to music has changed tremendously over the years, back in the day it was almost always Thunderstruck by Ac/dc, but lately this one feels more right for me https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jvipPYFebWc

Also did you notice this article by Open, what jumps out at me regarding this fear were talking about here is how he describes it perfectly.
-What I've noticed is, that the more you commit to the exploration and revelation of self, the shorter the constricting bottlenecks last, and the more you expand with the flow coursing through you. It literally feels like a path of light is opening up before you- http://www.openhandweb.org/comment/25392#comment-25392
Brilliant!!!

Wyndè

From Richards article....Check out these two articles by Olivia Goldhill. They show us how the Buddhist perspective of ever-changing self can be linked to Neuroscientific research and that our personalities change over the course of our lives. What is interesting about this second study is that most of the research out there suggests that personality is fairly stable. However, they have all been conducted up to middle age, and this study went all the way from ages 14-77. It suggest that the bigger changes in personality begin to happen after middle age. Of course this is the period in our lives when we will have to say goodbye to many of the people, objects and situations that we have identified with. It shows how losing these things can affect who we are. We may become different people as the things that we hold dear get ripped away from us.

https://youtu.be/JBZMqpWRNTQ
Will.I.am performs fire

Heyas Richard!! Those articles you wrote on fear are awesome! It is about death, which within itself is just an ending to something or another. How your dealing with your box though is brilliant. I like your web of identity too, the many facets of oneself gives a particular pin pointed view on who, how and why a person is the way they are. In turn just knowing you are that, but allowing yourself to be so much more and not confined to a pin point is freeing in and of itself.

Okpani, whatever helps you be free is priceless I say! You go Girl :)

Hi All. I do believe it is a past life memory has been triggered by the sweat lodge experience. I really do appreciate all the support and suggestions. To start the process I will also attending a NLP session then an indepth astrology reading to access this experience. I visualise a plant breaking the surface of earths crust as it grows in the direction of the SUN...I am that close!!! I will read the articles Richard. One Love Okpani

Hi Okpani, Wynde, AuntyAngel.

I feel you there. I myself had a past life experience of being kept in a box, and now I have a very big body which doesn't quite fit anywhere, so this is how I'm dealing with this Karma. It sounds really like some Karma has been triggered for you too Okpani.

I believe that most fear can be traced back to a fear of death - that is, the fear of the unknown, the fear of obliteration, the fear (as you said in your first post) of losing yourself.

To me, giving myself practice feeling these things can be hugely beneficial. One of my favourite ways to do this is to go out for a walk and find a place relatively free of danger, and then close my eyes and walk like this. It is a real test of stepping into the unknown and I don't last long, but it's a great opportunity to bring up this fear in a safe environment and work with it, knowing you can open your eyes at any moment.

The same could be applied to you - take yourself into a mock scenario where you feel trapped, unable to move, and work through the 9-step process. There are many ways to induce fear, particularly if it close to the surface as in your case.

Then I would ask myself - who am i in this scenario (e.g. being on the tube)? Which is the part of me that cannot be touched, that cannot be confined, that cannot be suppressed? Then I would get to know this part of me and try to be that in these scary scenarios.

Hope that helps. I'm actually in the middle of writing a series of articles on 'Overcoming fear by embracing death' if anyone's interested. The series has 2 parts so far and theres likely to be at least one more part on the way.

http://www.comebacktothesource.com/articles/overcoming-fear-by-embracin…

http://www.comebacktothesource.com/articles/overcoming-fear-by-embracin…

Love, Richard

Heyas AuntyAngel!

Opkani, use the distraction while working through your fear most definitely! I say anything that calms you and brings inner peace is well worth the effort.
The steps here are absolutely brilliant, just another reason for me to be thankful for finding this site. Think I'll write them down myself too and hand them out to my family/people that are going through life's moments/karmic trauma.

I was thinking last night about this and how poetic/synchronistic for me this is it too. Just Friday night I went to a family gathering and I was telling them that I was "quitting/going on vacation" from being the protector/guardian of them. That I'm getting to old for this sh.. Then my nephew was relaying all kinds of stories and others were chiming in etc.

So ok then! Okpani just always know you are never alone, everyone has moments of sweaty palms and internal convulsions. But this is your story, your life, your moment in time. Let your spirit shine and just know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you will get through this no matter what... Even if it takes an hour, week or whatever time you allow it.

Bless your Soul!!
Wyndè

http://www.openhandweb.org/The_Complexity_of_Blending_the_Higher_Flow_w…

As i read on I am enveloped in a wave of love that brings tears to my eyes. Just thinking of going on the tube makes my hands sweat and breathing speeds up. Yes there is a feeling of density and it feels very heavy. Using distraction is a great tool and thought of creating a tapestry while sitting on the tube. Going to print off the 9 steps and work through each one moving past 4 and 5. One Love Okpani

Hi Okpani and Wynde,
What a joy it is to witness your connection. Thank you. Yes, I can feel your fear.
My experience is that there is a subtle balance to be kept between infusing soul - there is so much that is not caught in the eddy current of fear - and confronting the fear head on.
So balancing music or walks in nature or dance or touch or wonderful food or whatever makes your heart sing with regressing back to the feeling you get in the tube. Maybe you don't have to go on the tube right now. The feeling is within you. Find a place you feel safe and then evoke the feeling you get on the tube and keep breathing. Keep softening. Get interested in how it feels - what tightens and keep breathing. Keep watching and feeling. It is just an experience, just energy, not you. Breath by breath. Take it slowly maybe. Little by little a day at a time. You will get there- it's a nine step process but it doesn't all have to happen in one bang. Just take the next step. You don't need to know the source of the pain or where you will end up right now you just need to be here and now - your experience in each moment is the key. The meditations on this website could be a great support. Go gently and slowly we are with you. You are not alone.

Your always welcome Okpani! You are working through this even though it may seem as if your not making any progress, even the very thought of doing anything about it is progress!! Never thought I would use this word - Density - but when the Density gets far to thick, have you tried just saying NO! HELL NO..?! If not, I give you permission to use my words hehe :) Make them up even, because your power can never be taken by anyone but yourself. Now I'm still learning the language of Openhand, so if my words don't seem quite as elegant or eloquent as most are then please forgive my somewhat crude mannerisms lol!
Density to me is thick dark energy that is easily dispelled, yet energy is the most beautiful symphony being played out universally. So with that being said, how about some music that soothes your soul? It is always possible to stop wherever you are and hear music everywhere. Even in a car going by because even that vehicle has its own energetic signature which is just another form music. People even, milling about and running to and fro have their own music, everything is music and you yourself are the most beautiful symphony.. Say that to yourself, scream it even.. I AM MUSIC and nothing can ever stop a melody from going forth. Nothing.
The Tube and Shakti I looked up online because I did not know what those terms were LOL, how awesome!! I learned something new, so thank you for that!!
btw: Im not a counselor or anything, Im just some random Woman running amok on planet earth that refuses to fear anything, even if it stops me in my tracks and I have to trudge, snail crawl through it!

Wyndè

Thank you Wynde for your kind words of comfort. This experience is so crippling to the point of none movement. I thought I could manage and face anything and anyone as I regained my Shakti. Sigh...I pause at this point...I do think about getting the tube and focus on internal strength then bottle out and either drive or get the bus making the journey extra longer. I know deep down I have to go through this wall but stop as to painful. As Open says...find the source of the pain and face it head on...but I do not know the source of this pain. I will remember your words as I venture forwards...One Love. Okpani

I feel your pain Okpani, I felt it all the way across the world it seems and well.. I get it, I understand and if you ever feel like you just need someone to just stand by you.. I am here. I don't know who you are and you don't know who I am.. But what does that ever matter huh?!! You are not alone.

Breathe, all will be well if you allow it to be well. Never be afraid to just say allowed, I have fear. Especially if people are nearby you. That is most definitely a moment in time when you allow others to soothe your soul and in turn you soothe theirs by sharing.

Ive faced head on fear's face in my life and until my last breath I will shout loud and roar to all who ever hear me.. Never fear anything or anyone.

I have learned something so completely extraordinary here in my month of visiting this website. Open talks alot about softening into oneself. At first this concept was very alien to me, but in practicing it and trying to maintain that it has helped part of my journey in staring down the many facets of pain I've stored up along the way. So if it helps, when you have a panic attack etc, just stop - breathe, look at all the facets that cause this anxiety and carry on when you and only you are able to.

I hope and pray this helps,
Wyndè

These panic attacks arrived after attending a sweat lodge last year September. I have used the tubes and have flown previously without worrying. During one of the rounds I felt trapped a day unable to breathe and clambered out of the lodge collapsing on the grass outside. I could not figure out what had happened as I was so looking forward to this experience as I moved along my path to total freedom and liberation..
Not quite. ..sigh...

Very timely. ...as I struggle through trying to overcome panic attacks on the tube and in lifts and planes ...any enclosed spaces I feel trapped in and unable to leave. I avoid using the tube and lift to avoid feeling this pain....and get stuck at this point. I fear I will lose myself and freak out and pass out. I need help at this point...any suggestions. One Love. Okpani

Dear Open,

My gratitude for a truly succint and inspiring piece. It is always such great comfort to be reminded that this journey is not not mine alone and that as humanity we are facing our most rapid and enormous growth and we must be also congniscient of what little Souls we are indeed! Feels like the nerdy class :)

Open, I would like to iterate on an point that you made in one of your articles. That is to always be fully aware and understand what we asking for when we seek to confront our pain, to ascend, to connect and flow to Source. It has been very dark, and very painful and mostly because once I committed to my soul journey I was shown my mirror fully and naturally my broken bits were infected with this pain I speak of and I didn't even know I had those broken bits to begin with!

So hence I just wanted to say this, if I only knew back then what I was asking for! :)

I am grateful always. My pain has been and still is my greatest catalyst.

God Bless,

Love,

Nivasha

Hey Alex,

You have been in my thoughts.
Wishing you well.

Rich.

To be gentle with ourselves, to let go of the inner critic, to be soft in the sadness

Many thanks Catherine for your post which I found most supportive & helpful. Yes, I agree with you that there is some part of me, that is projecting this idea of having to go faster & better, onto others including Open. It's something that I could well do with letting go of, & perhaps writing about it on this forum, & having it witnessed & "heard" by you & others, is a step towards that. I can be a very hard "task master" towards myself, cracking the whip & expecting/forcing myself to do things that are beyond my capabilities at this moment.

Many thanks Open for your understanding & your wise, supportive comments. Reading your post somehow took some of the pressure off me, & brought me a feeling of relief, contentment, that I'm doing OK. It's opened something up for me, which I can't quite put my finger on right now, but may be able to later.

After reading these 2 posts while I was out doing my voluntary job at the Credit Union, I came home & felt a pull to listen to some music that I find sad & was able to have a bit of a cry, to shed a few tears which I don't ordinarily find easy to do at all. I haven't listened to those particular tracks for a while, & it felt significant to do so, to release something, to let something go...

I appreciate these Openhand forums very much.

Blessings,

Alex

Hi Alex,

My heart goes out to you. I've felt like a failure many times when I've pulled back, too fearful to go deeper. F___, it's so not easy! And for a good part of my life, I've often felt the need to go faster and better, which was a coping mechanism in my childhood and teenage years to both prove my worth and distract myself from the pain and the sadness of family dysfunction. Which I still do. at times. Thanks to Kim, my wonderful and stalwart coach, for helping me to realize this. Perhaps, deep down, you feel you must go faster and better like I do and then project that others are demanding this of you. I'm aware that I project this conditioned belief outwards whenever I feel that others are cracking the whip! All I see is a part of me. The outer mirror always reveals the state of my inner consciousness. I'm getting better at interrupting the blame game i.e. "You did this to me." How tempting is that ha!

Most of us have had strong and relentless societal conditioning around achieving outcomes and going full force to reach our goals. I experienced this recently while meditating, wanting desperately to stay in the Love/Light space I was feeling and kept losing due to distracted thoughts. And then feeling totally pissed off and frustrated. I go in and out of attachment to outcomes. I accept what Open says. That when we aim for enlightenment, we've already separated ourselves from Source. And, in general, when we try to control the flow, we separate ourselves from the divine flow. What a huge challenge that is. Letting go of control!

When all is said and done, what I truly feel is that we are all doing the best we can and that acceptance of where we're at, without judgment, is the key to letting the pain go. And there are no timelines to get to that space. Sometimes I resist. And sometimes I accept and find the doorway into the Light.

Take heart, my friend. As Open, says, it's not your fault. We're not to blame ourselves for our "shitty" conditioning, but we are responsible for letting it go. You've stepped up to the plate quite admirably. One day, you and I will look around and find that we're at Home Base.

Much Love to you,

x Catherine

Many thanks for your last response, Open. I initially had an angry reaction to reading it, like I felt you didn't understand or weren't hearing me correctly.

After 3 days of pondering, my anger has now subsided & I can now respond to your post in a more calm & detached way.

During the experience I described in my post above, & in my longer post on the "Alex's Experiences" thread, I mentioned how I'd "felt into" my painful, acute feelings of envy, which seemed like a "surface level" experience, & had then briefly touched the emotion of despair, which seemed to me to be the "source pain".

You wrote:

"The deep subconscious source pain, once you get through this fizz, may only begin as a slight vibration - barely recognisable as anything. But this is where you need to be."

I understand & agree with your suggestions, but my point was that it was difficult enough for me to do what I did on that day - to feel into my envy & briefly touch my source pain of despair - although I think it may even be that the despair isn't yet my true source pain, but a "stepping stone" towards that.

For me, it felt like progress just to get to that far, it's like my "being" won't let me go any faster, much as I'd like that. I seem to have some internal self-regulating mechanism that will only allow me to experience a certain level of pain at a given moment in a given situation, & will then "shut down" the pain by some "distraction" as you call it - numbing out, boredom, depression, anger or rage. This is something I appear to have no control over - I can't force myself to experience more pain (or to "dive into" it as you so often say) - it just doesn't work that way for me.

The analogy that comes to mind is trying to drive a car by depressing the gas pedal when the brake pedal has been strongly applied - however much gas you apply, the car will slow down & stop because the brakes are more powerful than the engine. In my analogy depressing the gas pedal is my attempt to feel into (or dive into) my source pain, & depressing the brake pedal is my unconscious & automatic self-regulating mechanism of shutting down the pain when it becomes intolerable.

Another way of putting it might be that my resistances to "diving into" the pain are still much greater than my willingness (or desire?) to do so.

You might be one of those fortunate people who can just "dive into" their source pain, but I am not. Believe me I've tried, in various ways over the last 20 years or so to do just that, initially through various forms of psychotherapy & more recently through more spiritual approaches, including most recently, the Openhand approach as described in your article above.

My intuition tells me that I will experience a breakthrough with this at some stage (perhaps that will be what you describe as passing through Gateway 1), that I will be able to go fully into my source pain & through that into presence, but for me it's slow progress - one step at a time.

I sometimes wonder, if I'm honest, whether the 5 Gateways sequence will be the one I experience, or whether my spiritual path will take me on another route. I sense that "trying too hard" to follow the 5 Gateways model might be counter-productive for me - seeking a particular outcome, when the Universe might have a different way for my soul to evolve & self-realise. That last part was a bit difficult for me to admit & to share on this forum.

It's been a recurrent theme for me that I've experienced spiritual practitioners & others pushing me (or pressurising me) to go faster in my process than feels right for me. Ultimately, I have to decide for myself how quickly I can go. There may be hidden karmic or other reasons for my apparent slow progress, & I don't mean to say that to excuse myself from anything.

Nevertheless, I'm glad that I'm part of the Openhand Community, & I do appreciate & welcome your comments & suggestions, Open, & those of others on the forums too.

Blessings,

Alex

I've just attempted the 9 step process regarding my feelings of envy, & got stuck (lost?) at step 4.

Step 1 was to accept & acknowledge my envy, which I did by writing my post on my thread Alex's Experiences.

Step 2 is something I'm very experienced in, as I've done many years of regressive therapy, so that came quite naturally as a result.

With step 3, I felt the pull to honour & express the pain of the envy by doing some of my creative drawing. The source pain then revealed itself as despair. However, when I got in touch with this despair, it felt difficult to stay with that feeling, & I became aware that I was starting to "numb it out", to move into my default of boredom & depression.

Therefore, I couldn't (wouldn't?) allow the source pain to reach it's height, which is what step 4 entails. I'm now left feeling that I'm a failure - I can't do these steps successfully or properly.

Perhaps my despair feels too "big" to dive into, or I don't know how to dive into it, or I'm too scared to dive into it, or there's some kind of other obstacle preventing me from diving into it.

It's easy for you, Open, to say "dive into your source pain" - but just how do I do that when I just can't see (or know) HOW???

I probably need to book another session with my Openhand spiritual coach.

A frustrated Alex

I find your 9 step spiritual healing process most useful & insightful, Open, so thanks also from me for the reminder. I've just printed it out on a single sheet of paper & will pin it to my kitchen cupboards where I will see it a lot, & it can act as a reminder when I get lost or confused, as to the way forward on my path of spiritual healing & self-realisation.

Alex

A timely reminder.
Thank you, Open.

*good*