Hi Open,

Thank you for the reflection. It all make sense . While I was reading my throat was in pain, felt like some thing stuck.

You asked ,

why were you angry about it? Is there some aspect of truth in what was said? Are you fully exploring yourself?

My sense is, I was expecting some validation from this person. I wanted him to see me even though I know he can't. And what he said was something that im not. So the pride in me felt wounded which lit up the anger. He is an elder brother to me and there was a subconscious need for validation from this strong paternal figure.

You are right , we are getting inspired by each other ,not copying.

When ever I hear you say." You' ve been in that road and you know it wont serve you anymore" ,I often doubt myself even though deep inside i know you are right~ Did I explored that road fully or did I bypass it? Does the soul need to start from the beginning to go further? I don't know from where this doubt coming from. When judgements comes from mainstream they triggers this doubts.

I need to read it again and again.

Thank you

Soumya