Hi Jen - great that your shared so openly. As someone given to create out there, I can certainly identify a lot with what you feel. Commitment is absolutely necessary to get anything done, but then there's the risk of identification - a double edged sword.

A think the quality of the 'hunter' which you could transform into something more 'spiritual' would be 'entrepreneur', which comes from the ray 7. So I'd suggest closely comptemplating the qualities of the entrepreneur. Above all there's enthusiasm and an expectancy that somehow things will work out. But this doesn't come from things always working out! Any entrepreneur will tell you it's about allowing yourself to fail, but then get up again with the same level of enthusiasm. I like the way Denzel Washington describes it - to fall forwards. Actually what I've found is that success comes from a progressive process of failure. Yet having the gumption to let go and approach the next opportunity with the same level of commitment and enthusiasm.

What's helped me balance the paradox, is that I look for the magic in the creating process. Like on the last video I knew the tide was coming in and I had minimal time, but that seemed appropriate - it added an increased sense of urgency. And then as I started, the dog running out into the waves at the appropriate moment - this kind of thing is pure magic when you experience it. So I commit fully to the process of creating something, yet really what's happening is that I'm working to dance with the magic of the moment. It might come to fruition, it might not. But at least I learn, evolve and grow in the process and have fun too. And what I've found is that it does lead to creative 'success' - in terms of a recognisable crystallisation of the energy.

Also you have to let go of the need for any kind of recognition or positive feedback from people around you. If you're happy with the 'product' and if somehow the universe reflects that back to you, then that's good enough. After that, if someone else benefits, then that's the bonus, the cherry on the cake so to speak.

So I'd say to anyone in the creative process, really examine what's your why? Why are you doing it. If it's about creative expression, learning, evolving and growing, you're sure to succeed every time. And, you may just find you start to get a productive physical outcome too.

Enthusiasm is a major key, so as Steve Jobs said, you have to love what you do.
Find what you love, then keep doing it!

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