Dear Open ,

What Anastasia's sharing triggered with me is a deep sense of Worthlessness . Also ,on Sirius ,not only was I not heard ,I was actually persecuted .In my current life it plays out as a conflict. I purposefully ' hide my light' because I am subconsciously afraid of showing who I truly am for fear of a backlash. Even in my marriage ,there is an element of pretending to be normal rather than rocking the boat ,the security for my daughter and myself that it represents. There are many threads to this. I believe it's an experience I have replayed again and again especially in female human form.

To answer your questions :

What is motivating me right now : Is. Deep desire to be authentic ,vulnerable to each moment as it arises .

What is the Shadow : Fear . Fear of persecution ,of not being secure ,of having my child taken away from me

General Orientation : Underlying purpose seems to be to be as much of myself as is possible. As I work through layers ,that seems to entail a much deeper sense of purpose and freedom than I ever thought possible .