Dear Open ,

I have been mulling over sharing this experience .

On Sunday,I had an opportunity to clean garbage in a site very close to a Sacred Grove ( one of the last remaining ones in my area ) . It was a clean up organized by a group of committed teens and I was very excited to go there.

I tried to connect to Earth energies during the clean up but wasn't really able to. After which I felt a wave of strong need to be validated ..and a wave of resentment against my partner and my kid. I contained it somewhat successfully ,but the next day after an extremely emotional Bow experience had a very strange experience of revisiting the area and this time I felt like I opened up a portal shaped like a torus in the area. I have never done this before and honestly it seemed to happen spontaneously.

Since then however I have been feeling very tired and have stayed in bed the entire day Monday . Also the contraction in my heart and belly seem bound by black cords

Any insights and reflections are welcome !

Megha