Does this mean that i have to abandon my wife which has not woken up and distance from my family which is draining. And quit my job which is ridden with the bullshit, cause everywhere i am i am tied up in having to pay a mortgage. So i sell my apartment and leave my wife for and get my own place, and start haging out with other lightworkers which i know in my town. Embodying the light which i guess is staying true to myself and my needs, being honest with people and they will fire me from my work.. I have been in this situation for a year now, and it's not so easy to find a solution. Cause my body is depleted from energy and i am very tired and seeking therapy working with heavy childhood trauma.