Great inquiry about crypto Gwyn! And it begs another question: what was the motivation for buying them in the first place?

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Yet, I have had a big inner discussion wondering if this is just another test of my resistance to trusting. Do I trust that my soul journey's got my back? By purchasing crypto, am I not surrendering or am I surrendering?

Perfect! How illuminating. It's ALL self-realisation and there's nothing else going on?

In the question: has the soul's journey got my back, whose back? You mean the ego? The soul is about destroying the ego. I bought Bitcoin when hardly anyone was talking about it and the cost was a paltry $500 per coin. A tech friend "persuaded me" (yes I've looked at that one!) to put it into a new (at the time) open-source wallet. Which I did. Only to lose it all. Now I can see it, but can't move it. It's absolutely superlative self-realisation! Can you create and let go!!

You asked the question: By purchasing crypto, am I not surrendering or am I surrendering? . Only you can answer that. It's your journey, which crypto has provided the vehicle for.

Blessings

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