Lots of powerlessness here (ray 1), having not taken responsibility for my own life and expecting everything to just turn out (ray 2). Now i have no control or sovereignty in my life as a consequence and have greatly diminished my chances of improving the situation. Now i need the warriors strength to not only get through but to somehow find creative solutions to align myself to an autonomous, more independent life where i can have dignity and freedom. The lessons are invaluable as this experience has forced me to grow up and take ownership of myself and my life. Aligned ray 1 especially, and 2 would help me greatly, i think. Maybe some ray 5?...