I loved reading this Yulia, It relaxes me down as there is a lot of acceptance in what you have written. I can see that same sort of self obligation that I should be feeling and flowing all the time.. Yet falling down is what makes the ride worthwhile and beautiful. It remind us how beautiful being connected with our inner essence is when we have disconnected from it for a while..thr knowing then lands that the experiences I was chasing were just a reflection of this inner flow and I can never be truly nourished if I disconnect from the inner.

Vimal