Hi Vimal,

After reading this post I felt the need to reply as follows. So I hope this somehow helps you on your path.

For me the past few months have been a rollercoaster ride of spiritual growth. Answers always lead to more questions but sometimes I found an answer which raised so many new questions that it was instantly tiring and I felt a need to give up; great, ten more corridors to go down while trying to maintain a degree of sanity while being still very much locked in the nine-to-five system. There have been two moments where I have intentionally lowered my vibration just to get back to the familiar, to take a break so to speak. My method consisted of ordering an oversized amount of fast food while drinking a bottle of alcohol while hanging back with some dumb movie and just throw this whole awakening stuff in the corner for a while. Upon reflection, this method worked for me because at a vibrational level it ties in well to many of the... old hooks? of my... former life? I am reluctant with these terms as I fear they may not offer the best description of my meaning but unfortunately they are the best descriptors at this moment. All I wish to add is that, if the above is meaningful to you in any way, I sincerely hope you have a more wholesome way available to you.

Why do I write this? Well, I suppose my main point is that I have found it can be quite liberating and beneficial for overall growth to intentionally drop your vibration for a while if you feel things are going too fast and/or too confusion and/or basically anything that starts with 'too'. This comment mainly comes forth from reading where you mention the dark emotions that come bubbling up, and losing your trust in the path you chose, both of which I recognize very well.

I therefore wish to offer the thought that at times where you really no longer trust the path, it may actually be a, shall we say, disguised invitation to wander away from it in a straight line and forget about it... and in doing so it actually turns out to be a part of the path ;) For me, after a few days I would have 'calmed down' once more and found that I had already gotten back on the path without even realizing it somewhere in the meantime. This in itself was a meaningful sign that it was all OK.