Hi Open and everyone,

I'm currently about 3/4 through the Resurrection book. The realisations (and questions) are flowing with every page turn, such that I have to consciously slow down to process and integrate them.

It strikes me there are two aspects to this simulation which we perpetuate if we are not aware of it:

1. Acquiescing to being 'supported' by a parental energy - losing sovereignty in the process. 2. Embodying/expressing the same energies that Ra expresses - thus keeping others dependent. These things don't have to be glaringly obvious - they can be really subtle.

So for me:

1. After letting go of the exhausting time I was putting into a 'business' I've been enjoying many moments of expansion. Resting in the not-needing to do anything and instead just be. However, it perpetuates a kind of inertia. It's triggered by the rest I feel has been necessary for me - something I've long recognised I need regularly. However, where it becomes distorted is an attachment to this state - a 'just leave me in peace' mentality. This has kept me from certain creative expressions. Expressions which I know could well challenge that Ra agenda - both in me and in others. It seems the key is a sense of adventure which comes from being prepared to take risks. Actually there is nothing to lose if I'm just expressing without a need for an outcome.

2. Your description of Ra in the book hit me like a nail in the heart. "Clarity, wisdom, a loving care, and strength, like a gentle rock in the storm" That's exactly how people often describe me! So gosh, one has to be so careful not to let these apparently benevolent expressions become distortions. It has been a distortion in my work in the past. A subtle desire to be put on a pedestal - to be 'recognised' by others - to be the one people can rely/depend on. So there's a recognition that if I come back to that work it would have to be with a clear awareness of this dynamic.

But then the question, if one is a natural leader, how can this be expressed in a way that doesn't establish some form of hierarchy? Intuitively the answer comes that the leader is not there to provide answers, but to guide people to their own answers - thus you are helping to direct a flow that is already taking place. That being said, any further suggestions/insights are welcome.

Reflections welcome :-)

Much love

Rich