As I read about the various reflections about identity and listen to the YouTube extract you provided, the synchronicity of it makes me smile. My musings the last several weeks have been precisely about identity (and the break down of it).

As I am deepening my dedication to a regular yoga practice, I am confronted with the usual « set your intention for your practice » and decide to use it to bring focus to areas I feel require attention. So I start initially with self love, as I feel this will help soften my inner dialogue and ego’s grip. For a few days, I focus on bringing myself love, not just during yoga but in my everyday actions.

As self love starts to trickle in however, I realize how limiting that is and then evolve to the wider « I am love ». As I carry this around with me again for a while, it also starts to feel limiting.

And as we near the Divinicus retreat, I reflect back on my experience in Cae Mabon last year and particularly on that final round in the sweat lodge where I felt « I am Presence ». This leads me to focus on incarnating this Presence. I start wondering: What is this Presence? As I position myself as the Observer, the question comes: Who is this Observer? And so I turn my attention into the Observer, instead of from the Observer out. It feels like a wave of consciousness, a movement. The centre of the torus? I deepen into this wave, until I reach what I understand to be Presence. But it is not a « Void of Nothingness ». It is colorless, shapeless, without identity, but there are still currents and variations in density within it. There is still potential. Infinite potential?

Am I correct in thinking that this zone of infinite potential is in fact the shores of the void, its event horizon and maybe I have yet to fully experience the perfect stillness of absolute Nothingness?

Then if you fully step into the Void where nothing exists, how do you not stay there infinitely? What it is that pulls you out of it since there can be nothing in it, no potential, no movement?

Many thanks and much love to everyone!