Hi Open,

I wanted to add this here. Since the whole experience is still a blur of mostly lost time and overlapping experiences which my mind cannot even put into any perspective, I do remember feeling a lot of negative emotions. To be clear this is not the way I looked at it before and look at it now. It is a curious sensation which feels to me like active engagement with intervention energies, but the sensation completely contradicts the way I engaged the experience as I look back on it. Perhaps this is a main reason why my mind blocked out virtually all of the experience; perhaps there is simply no applicable frame of reference for the mind to use.

I am currently inquiring the possibility that the experience brought me back to situations where I was actively engaging with intervention energies, probably knowing exactly what I was doing and thus processed through guilt and shame of being the instigator rather than the victim. Given this description and your view on the matter at the time, I would appreciate your reflection.

This is not to paint a negative picture! The experience was quite positive, I am just trying to make sense of the memories.