Dear Amber, I have a sese of what you are feeling(perhaps) up until a few months ago I had the most fulfilling,happy and spiritual year of my life,which was my awakening(mid 2011) but without rhyme or reason my last few months have been very dense,almost depression but different as it seems a 'little' more external.After reading up and researching for my own symptoms the nearest parallel I can find is what is termed 'Dark night of the soul' which is an intermediate between spiritual transformation.I know the Shift is happening and effects us all in different ways. You are not alone.Peace be still.