Hi Jenny,

You said...

"This exact pattern is surfacing in my own field over the last year...coming face to face with the expectations on my own paternal father and how in his absence I have projected this need on other males in life. I have started to see how this has been a substitute for a real connection to source and just keep noticing and recognizing everytime this attempt to project comes up and come back to the true source."

I take my hat off to you for being so surrendered, honest and open. How many people reading this I wonder, and out in society, are suffering from the same filters? Many! And of course the first step to healing it is openness and honesty. It's not easy, but it is the fast track to true healing.

You ask...

"Now the original feeling of being alone and abandoned combined with the fear of completely disappearing - of having no voice or no effect are coming on strong - the question comes as to whether this is a soul feeling or an ego based feeling? Is it just the ego holding on to separate existence or is it the result of a soul that has either lived the life of a grey or had other life experiences that brought these feelings on and attracted the presence of the greys in my field due to resonance?"

Always in such situations of non clarity, the ego is entwined (so the speak) with the soul. So the soul will be having an exploration - for example "what is the experience of nothing like?" or "if there is only one of us, then what does it mean to truly be alone in the universe?". The soul can handle this, because the soul is not an identity. But where the soul is not yet fully self-realised, then it 'hooks' onto the energy and forms a self defeating 'eddy-current' around the consideration. This becomes the identity, the ego.

So to self-realise, you have to get into the eddy current. You have to be in the experience of it. To become the experience so much, that it can no longer define you because there's no rejection of it. That means to express the fullness of it. Then you bring presence into the pain. Then the pain ceases to be defined as 'pain'. It becomes a flowing, authentic expression of the soul.

You ask another powerful question...

"One other question, if the greys have had their karmic past life memories wiped, are they still able to feel the effects of the karma even if they can not identify the experience itself - are they able to feel even if it is difficult to express emotion?"

The soul needs a vehicle through which to express. Without this relativity, there is not really existence. You see this kind of 'living' in the eyes of many. A kind of desenitised avoidance of the emotional body. I see it in many teenagers for example. Especially after hours of x-box!

What we need to understand is that, on the part of the greys, an intervening engineering has happened to create such desensitisation. They've been separated and encased so as to disconnect from the source - and thus true feeling. It's mirrored in society. I would say over 99% of people we work with have strong elements of repression and lack of soul expression. It's a big part of the intervention.

But the cause of the karma - lack of self-realisation - has not gone away, despite the karmic past life energy having been removed. Thus once the soul is reconnected, the journey of self-discovery can continue.

This is such a powerful mirror to humanity right now. My heart yearns for greater exposure and understanding of this essential topic. When we can get over the obvious taboos and closed mindedness of course!

Open