Been sitting with this today...part of my question arises from my own personal experience as well as what I am observing in working with others, that there is a tendency to stay in the place of the observer as a protection from feeling. It seems impossible to me to be observing AND feeling fully at once UNLESS there is the dropping into the feeling completely and seeing, sensing from this place...though it feels very different from observing. I perceive the difference is observing from above the experience versus observing from within it - and then observing doens't feel like the right word.

I recognize that as we walk the path, our soul brings us into the places where we become identified with the body/mind - where we have a need for a particular outcome and that it is in dropping into the feelings you are experiencing and feeling who you are through them that these patterns are released and the soul self-realizes through the experience. So, what I experience is in the times where there is just a feeling of simple beingness - where nothing in particular is being stirred up, there is a back and forth movement on where I am...seated as the observer or dropping into the sense of presence and infusion into the arising experience. Perhaps the understanding I am seeking has to just come from my own experience of this and how I feel to be with it, but a part of me wants to know what's happening...perhaps it's just the ego that wants to get a grasp. Thank you for letting me share =) love, Jen