Dear Open ,

Thanks so much for posting about the gut wrenching aspects of Gateway 2. I am certainly bang in the midst of that change and yes, it is a total change in the way one has functioned ,an almost drastic emergence out of deeply held neural pathways.

For me, it is definitely affecting the way I view relationships . I was led recently to meet a really nice guy. This is after a rather disappointing, very karmic relationship came to a painful end about 1 year ago. This guy seemed perfectly suited -spiritual ,empathic and kind. We had a lot in common and it seemed to be rather a balm to my heart to be with such an emotionally intelligent person. He did have a degree of a healer identity and an attraction to the love and light aspect of spiritual practice, which we discussed. At the time, it felt like many synchronicities pointed to him being a twin flame reflection . And yet ,post facilitator conference ,something changed within me drastically. I met with him recently after the magical week in Glastonbury and suddenly felt no flow happening at all. Almost like there was a switch that turned off .

I broke it off gently, compassionately and very honestly but have since then been a bit surprised at my sudden volte face. The drastic change reminds me of the time in my early twenties when I started meditating ( to cope with med school and home sickness) only to find i just couldn’t stomach meat any more. I still thought I liked it ,but there was such a vociferous NO from my entire system .

It’s just getting curiouser and curiouser in the shift :) .

Post the sudden break-up ,I am feeling the flow of my soul even stronger ,but I would be happy for any reflections or intuitions in this regard. Like Saumya, I too am feeling pressure and deeply challenging sensations which I am trying my best to bow in to with varying degrees of success.

Onwards and Forwards !

PS : Clearly some synchronicity about me posting this 3 times : something out of whack in the 3rd chakra ,perhaps ?

Megha