Hi Megha,

I resonate with the term drastic changes. That’s what’s happening in my life too. It’s happening so quickly that I don’t even get time to make sense of it. In other words, I’m becoming more unpredictable and selfish too. Small things trigger me, and most of the time, I’m mean to those close to me.

I’m allowing the unresolution to be as it is and watching it. I’ve gone through intense breakdowns followed by the realisation that my situations are my blessings. I knew it intellectually for a long time—now it has started to land in my being. One layer of poverty consciousness is dissolving.

My situations are my blessings. Why? Because they are perfect opportunities for me to know who I truly am, where I’m getting identified, and how I can break through. They nourish me with commitment, determination, and courage, and keep me on track so that I won’t give up. But at the same time, I’m aware of not falling into the trap of 'attachment to agony' or 'rejection of comforts'.

This morning, I woke up with an intense gnawing pain in my sacral area ( kind of pulling some hooks). I think it’s related to sexuality. I can feel a weight over my body, especially in the lower chakras. I can also see connection, love, and alchemy in intimacy—but it’s all deeply buried under this weight of convolution. Another challenge to dig into.

NB: I feel to say that your previous comments have helped me greatly to process some of my karma on Sirius associated with grief and loss. It was truly inspiring. Much gratitude🙏

Lots of ❤️

Soumya 🪷