Hey Margaret.
I just want to say I love your comment. Not because what your experiencing, but because of your honesty and courage to say it. I find it inspirational!
I also love at the end how you 'I'm just guna sit with all these feelings.'
What a warrior you are!
As I'm sure you know and is often said, we are not our experiences rarther something else moving through them.
The density your penetrating is a mark of the strength of the wave which I see you as.
Know this.
Your not alone.
For behind the wave you are is a whole ocean.
You got this. I know it!
Respect to you.