Hi Steve,

I am experiencing what feels like pure presence during the breathing breakthrough meditation. My challenge is to relax fully since I carry a lot of tension in my body and mind given my hypersensitivity to the surrounding energy field. I am by no means in the state of pure presence at all times, to say the least. I find it best to do this meditation in the middle of the night when all is quiet and there are no distractions and maybe less 'spooks' around. Next step is to incorporate more regularly during the day.

In addition, I continue to do the golden light meditation regularly, which strongly resonates with me: breathing golden light into the 8th chakra and breathing it out thru all the chakras down to the base and then back up to the crown. And in these crazy times of madness and mayhem on planet earth, I'm drawn to drawing up/breathing the loving energy of Mother Earth up thru the base chakra to the 8th chakra above the crown and then drawing down my spirit light body thru the crown down to the base.

I'm feeling that meditating and breathing the light of my soul thru the chakras is activating my shadows and blockages that are being reflected back in the experiences I'm attracting in the outer mirror. My chance to say, "That is not me," and let go of identifying with the distortions. In my case, it's showing me where I have disempowered myself thru feelings of guilt, unworthiness, and needing to save others -- reflected back as a lack of respect and compassion, and not being heard, valued, and validated. Only now, I'm going with this mantra: "Do no harm, but take no shit." In other words, I'm speaking out about how I feel, firmly but respectfully, mindful of when I get into "over-energized" communication. It's heartbreaking and mega sad when some choose to walk away since we no longer jive with the misaligned way of being. So it's a pretty challenging time but I accept that the death and destruction process is necessary to ascend to a higher way of being. I might go kicking and screaming at times though! :)

All in all, I would say that the meditations are helping me to feel more empowered to express a higher and more aligned way of being and acting; yet, at the same time, I am feeling totally exhausted with the death and destruction process. So I'm taking time to hibernate as need be just like the bears. 'Tis the season, after all!

Bet you're sorry you asked, Steve! :)

Wishing you well with your meditation adventures! We've pushed off from the shore. No sense turning back!

x Cathy