Hi Open,

Glad to have found your site. Much of what you say in your videos resonates deeply with me. A little intro on myself. Two years ago experienced a K activation. I cannot say for sure exactly how it happened. Guess it was just time. I am a Christian, was practicing Aikido only for about 7 months. Had a bad chiropractor adjustment, a few sessions of acupuncture to resolve the pain, felt compelled to ground in the dirt so went crazy on my gardens and hello K awakening. Interestingly enough I believe my soul was preparing me for this transition as a year prior was talking about kundalini yoga and chakras and I had no idea what they were and only practiced yoga once before in my life. This of course happened after a dark period, disenchanted with the world, materialism, environmental destruction and general lack of empathy and love for others and searching for my true identity which I understand now can be a precursor to this. I also feel the pull to help people and acquired land to develop hopefully into a retreat someday. Its been 2 years and 1.5 of it I have experienced much energy blockage in my lower chakras though. The energy began rising and got blocked early on. I experienced sexual abuse as a child and was raised in a very strict religious household and can't seem to transmute this energy. I never had counseling, simply didn't want to open pandoras box. I never did well with talk therapy. My voice was always silenced. I am working through that presently. I also had two dreams of being attacked by a dragon and the Greek word 'ophis' and free-falling off a skyscraper avoiding this beast. I have no idea what that means. However I am growing tired of the constant backache, lack of appetite, libido and everything else that goes along with this blockage. So is my spouse. I had to discontinue Aikido due to the back issue. Tried consulting with religious and no luck there either. In fact any practice in the energy arts is strongly ill-advised. However my gut tells me otherwise. Can you offer any suggestions for me?

In gratitude,

K