I love the phrase "riding the blade edge of life " Open . I have something to share that exemplifies the blade edge in my life . I am a neonatologist and I deal with very tiny babies ,barely alive . For me the challenge is to bring humanity to the ICU space with its soulless beeping monitors and yet exuberently alive little ones . It is often challenging in the extre . Since the 9th ( full scorpio moon ) I have been inundated with babies that have been small or really sick . And it has been challenging in the extreme . My best friend and husband were travelling and I was being a mom to my 8 year old and mom to these little ones without my usual supports .
6-7 nights of very little sleep ,occasional swims and lots of breathing later I found myself awake and doing what I do in times of such drama. Attempting to feel into my body . Past the knots of anxiety and the heartfelt anguish of the parents ,I found Gratitude . I spent the whole morning weeping with the beauty of the fact that of all the things I could be doing ,i get to do THIS. I get to be here in this razor blade's edge between life and death ,between pleasure and pain . I get to be of such deep ,life altering service . I must have incredible karma to be HERE ,RIGHT NOW ,IN THIS .
Sorry for that rave .....but thats what this sharing brought up in me !