Hi Paul,

Yes indeed, how right you are, let's get down to it...

the real journey in spirituality is gritty and sh*tty and scary as hell from the viewpoint of the one aspiring to it, that it’s a clearing away of ALL non-essentials - first and foremost a destructive process, that the fields first go fallow in order to cultivate new growth.

You hit the nail on the head. I think plenty of people expect it to be "all love and light" and so stop when the going gets tough, but that's exactly the time to push on, to persist. That's when the work really makes a difference.

You said...

I find myself wondering how much more of this I can take. I feel mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausted.

I'd say exhaustion only happens because one part is pulling against the other. That's okay, when you start getting to this point, elements of ego just have to give up!

There with you

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