Living in the "DreamSpace" of Joyful Multidimensionality

This is where i need to get to. in terms of decision making, i'm only just learning to discern when it's ego want and desire, which unfortunately is quite often. i have yet to really learn when it's the whispers of my soul and i very much would like to do so. Since i have barely managed to master even an iota of patience, i'll need to keep working till i get to oodles 😉 i feel like i'm missing out on great adventures by jumping on the first opportunities, because it's easier, and then ignoring the warning signs. Or shying away from challenges and not bothering to feel if there's anything worthwhile on the other side. But i'm deciding to stop listening to the panicky, scared little girl and start trusting. She'll kick up a terrible fuss and make me feel so uncomfortable i'll want to bolt like a terrified horse, but now that i know the feelings i endeavor to just let them be until they pass. Lucky i've had a great teacher to show me how to breathe! It just occurred to me the horse analogy is spot-on as they tend to run right back to the burning barn, which is what i've been doing all my life. i've chosen the familiar, easy hell over having the courage to strike out on my own and to take responsibility for myself and my own life, and to follow my own divine path. Thank you for the inspiration. Time to get MOVING. 💙💙💙🙏

Hi Open,

Thank you for sharing.

I felt to respond to your experience with the deer as I have been feeling the deer a lot lately too. Just yesterday (while Christmas shopping), I suddenly looked up and saw this, and I paused in all the hysteria for a moment and took a deep breath of pure Love ❤️

The image isn’t showing up... It’s hopeless trying to do these things from your phone sometimes. 

In any case, just imagine a beautiful deer in the meantime, until I can get to a computer... Lol!😄

Anastasia 

So I'm being creative in the farm I stay and I'm building various shapes and statues with mud and scrap. It's really a fun process flowing with the soul within the creative expression. I begin withput any intention of how it's supposed to be and my attention gets drawn towards various materials near me and I begin from there. It's really surprising that the flow can manifest. After working for sometime I went to rest for a while and my attention was drawn to a a particular supota from a pile of those and would you believe it was the only one ripe among the pile! Open I understand how synchronisty works when we are supposedly static. Something flow manifested just before. 

Cathy,

Thank you so much for sharing, because it triggered things back in me :D Wonderful! The mirroring. In my case I am afraid of light more than of the dark. I can dwell in it forever. It is more comfortable, it is a comfort zone, in some way. Death, dying, being buried, lying there - is home. For me it was a really big deal to open up for light. These days -
for love, for receiving from people, from life, from myself. And.. funny, but I used to be afraid of open doors and slits. It is also hard for me to get out, still. This is something I started doing consciously only recently. Go outside here in the city, go out to people, and what is most important - go out to myself, meet myself, it is all connected and reflected somehow, it is like finding pieces of myself in reflections outside and out of tightness that is generated by all kinds of little things. It is really a blessing. I am finding something out every day. Sometimes I really need to push myself, overcoming the friction. It ALWAYS pays off. Because I was always afraid of people, of communication, of the discomfort and triggering it is doing, of the noise it is and it generates inside me. I have been hiding all my life, in all kinds of ways.

And now I am up to it. Like, challenge me! I want it. I am happy with it. And I love people for it. Otherwise I just stagnate in my own digging and bury myself alive, happily. All this confinement is a twisted kind of safety, a twisted home, a distortion of it. For some it is the love and light bubble. For some it is a hideaway of seclusion. Whatever it is, it just locks in. But in the back of it the same thing, it feels, just maybe from different directions. No matter how I look at it - it is this split to opposites, getting too attached to one of them, afraid of the other... A trap. This shit is gotta get mixed. When I manage to do it, it's, well... f"ck yeah! :D Now I am noticing.. I am learning to mix and master now in music!! What a reflection!!! :D

The saviour thing - a big, big one, probably more relevant for women? Save me, protect me, secure me, make me feel worthy, beautiful, safe? All these... Tough!!! I am still working on some of these. But the saviour is over. SIIIIIGH!!! In one of my regressions I am dying, alone, nobody will come to help me or save me. Also somebody SEE ME! See me, see me!!! I couldn't see myself, because I was looking outside (palmface hhh). The "nobody will come to save me" - I lived through it in my last two relationships, and what a nightmare it was. Nobody came to save me indeed, not people I tried to rely on, until the ambulance arrived LOL (benevolence is brilliant). It took me years to solve it chunk by chunk, because the pain was too much to feel at once and too many things were around it, like a cloud, a protective cloud. And I projected it, on "God" too, the God I imagined, or the light I imagined... At some point I killed it all. "Kill the Buddha" - Osho says. I killed every real or imagined thing I relied on or tried to. Everything was taken away from me. And my soul had a lot to do with it...

The truth can't emerge in places like that, when they are filled by external images and sources. It seems brutal, it feels brutal, when the ground is swept underneath, but this is the only kindness that is really helpful. It is liberating. The rest is just an illusion, which is much more cruel and devastating in the long run. Moreover, it makes people run in loops, self-defeating loops. It's is tough, oh, let's turn to God, light, the knowing guru, the book, the video, whatever, get the temporary relief and kick, get back in the loop, and like that, like a squirrel in the wheel, never-ending cycle, never finding the real thing, themselves, something within... always jumping out of themselves... At some point sabotage come up. The soul can't take it anymore. It's enough! Then it kills and smashes all the images that we're disempowering ourselves by. But not all of us get it, not until it's done.

And the shift is tremendous, when it's gone. It is like being always connected inside, the moment I lose it, it's just wrong, and everything I am appealing to is also inside. But with that, it made me much more open to ask for "real help" and to receive it. "Save me" doesn't work. "I need some help here" does. And there is a lot to dig around the whole "what is true help?". I had several months of exploring it, finding the right thing inside, and I still am finding bits of bullshit in me and others, the kind of sticky disempowering out-of-centre stuff.

Yeah.. Anyway, the soul knows the way... even if the mind is clueless hhh It better be, as long as the "trickster" is alive.

<3 <3 <3
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Open!!

WOW. There was shiver of truth in the legs, when reading the comment.

Even though the tunnel is over, but what you write is very relevant still. I feel like somebody just put some part in place in my system, and my legs started shivering, something is moving, energetically, from down up, and feelings come. The body is speaking... It really goes deep... going to look at it now...

Thank you! <3

Hi Lia,

Your experience of being immersed in a dark tunnel, unable to a sliver of light, triggers traumatic karmic memories of being buried alive. It feels like I died completely engulfed in fear without any glimmer of light, fighting to stay alive and escape the darkness, hoping someone 'out there' would pull me from the grave.

I am still fearful of confined spaces and have often panicked in small elevators, for example. I once took my daughter into a Haunted House at a summer fair. As I entered the narrow, dark corridor, I panicked and my heart began to pound wildly. I quickly turned around and rushed back into the daylight. To this day, I'm afraid of being in a bedroom with a closed door. Open doorways resonate deeply on all levels: spiritually, physically, psychologically, karmically, and emotionally, which is why I was drawn to Openhand's 5 Gateways.

In contemplating all of this, I'm aware that I'm fearful of the darkness and of diving too deep down the rabbit hole. I'm holding back, terrified of being buried alive and forever exiled in the darkness, powerless to find the doorway into the light.

What you said here really hits me:

"Maybe sometimes, some of us need to surrender into the complete darkness and having nothing to rely on?"

Thank you for the mirror and for taking me into deep contemplation about this. I'm feeling that total surrender and acceptance and becoming one with the darkness is the only doorway to the light. Yet it feels like I fear both the light and the darkness that seems to relate to source pain around feeling betrayed and abandoned by divine benevolence and losing trust in the light. I have recreated many experiences in this incarnation around betrayal, exile, and abandonment so I can self-realize as the One through them, but I haven't gone deeply enough to completely let go of that ancient pattern. However, I am having breakthroughs and do find and express a higher way of being. One small step at a time.

As for relying on another, I'm aware that part of me still hopes someone else will pull me out of the grave. On an intellectual level, I get that all the 'someones' are the One, that there's only One of us, and it's up to me to self-realize as Unidentified Pure Presence through the darkest experiences rather than give away my power to external deities and saviors. Buddha, J.C., and all the gods and goddesses simply mirror back the power of my own higher self to self-realize as the One through all experiences. Yet part of me is pissed and angry and wants to say, "You put me here! Now get me out!" *%&#*%@*&! It complicates things that I prefer my sweeter side!

My mother often said, "God helps those who help themselves." At the same time, while growing up, I was conditioned by my family and Catholic religion to believe that Jesus Christ would save me if I was worthy and perfect enough. Deep down I'm fearful that I will never be worthy and perfect enough to become enlightened, to become the light. I accept that oodles of patience is required, as Open says, so I will continue to breathe the light of my soul through my fears and darkness as best as I can. As I was doing just that the other night, I felt like I was pure light.

These lines inspire me deeply:

“Sometimes someone isn’t ready to see the bright side.
Sometimes they need to sit with the shadow first.
So be a friend and sit with them.
Make the darkness beautiful.”
~ Victoria Erickson

Love,

Cathy

The article - so important and so timely :) <3

I am really finally feeling like living it, so the way you describe is very comforting, because I barely have people in my environment who experience life in this way. It causes some feeling of inadequacy and self-doubt sometimes. It is hard. It is challenging to be constantly pulled, disturbed, "tricked" by people, see it and the forces behind the scene, find my being in it all and then extract what I need to extract out of all this noise, and with that feel out what is right to do and do it no matter the reactions and frustrations of people involved. But I guess it is like a training? Strengthening of the inner connection, developing more and more trust and less and less doubt, really coming into presence.

Even though my self-trust is still shaky, I feel I have no other choice, otherwise it is like feeling being torn apart, when the soul is being kicked out or pulled out, in some way, and this is what is happening anytime I am going into a "false" mode. It is just not an option anymore. I immediately have to focus back. The clumsiness and confusion is going away, and really watching, listening comes in place. It is a big shift of attitude to what is going on and in a way of being in experiences. Being alone in this is very hard. So thank you so much for support and reinforcement, for the reminder that I am not alone!

And... I have a question about your comment. There was a period, after I had my heart expansion I went "into the tunnel", that lasted until recently, and there no matter how hard I tried and what I did I barely saw or felt any light at all, until it was completely gone. Then I felt I had to let it go, and was immersed in total darkness for a rather prolonged period of time. Retrospectively, I felt like I just gradually died in that dark tunnel with no light at all. It was a time of strengthening my faith without any signs of the "light" kind. I mean, it is easy to trust the obvious, and it can easily be intellectually created to rely on something when the real thing is gone. So one of the most important stages was to give in. Like I saw nothing but the dark, nothing but hell and hellish creatures inside me and around me. The whole universe turned into hell. And it is like really letting go all the good and nice, and making steps forward into the darkness, even if it means more horror and more darkness and more blindness. The steps I took for several months were made from darkness into darkness. I had no light at all! And the fall too... There is this quote about taking a leap of faith and finding a solid ground or wings to fly - nothing like that happened to me, I just got crushed completely and nearly killed. I can't see my fault in it, even though for a long time I thought it was all my fault. There was really no light or support in that process. And the miracle is that still, I survived, and I was pulled out of my grave through a place where there is neither consciousness, nor choice and no support at all. So maybe it is not always like that? Maybe sometimes, some of us need to surrender into the complete darkness and having nothing to rely on?

Retrospectively I can see and feel I was led and that I was never abandoned, but it was not my experience within the tunnel.

And the tough part was that I felt something was wrong with me, because of messages of this kind. I thought I was doing something wrong and was struggling to find the light and the good and to feel the connection, until I just let it go out of exhaustion.

So, focusing it, could it be that in some cases, for some time, there will not be any light anywhere in the tunnel whatsoever? I am asking it because I feel it is important to let know that this might happen and that it is okay too!

Thank you <3

I have found it's getting easier each year as I align with what's real for me. This year's proclamation to my sisters that I wasn't buying gifts was heard as me not engaging in any family festivities....some emotional triggers were set off but I was able to calmly and lovingly talk about what is meaningful and what isn't. I'm creating a new family tradition of a sleigh ride together with hot beverages afterwards. It's fun to hear family members talk about looking forward to it. Haven't mastered the resistance to sugary treats so I'm well-armed with vegan goodies to bring to our gatherings. The single most helpful practice I engage in is the Openhand creed of tuning in to how I'm feeling, bringing awareness to how it's serving my higher good! Much love to all xo

Thank you for bringing this article up Open. With the holiday season well upon us, I have been feeling some doubt as to whether I can be in it and not get caught up in it all...the shopping, the eating, the drinking...all of it. It feels like there is this giant societal permission to just give in to it all because "it's that time of year". We are hosting a little Christas Eve Party with my kids and the grandparents tonight - simple but still it all begins. I know someone will bring the wine and it feels so easy to just slide into the expected place.

I received some great support yesterday through a song by an old band called Journey. This song popped up on my kids radio channel yesterday and again in a random movie they chose to watch last night. Here are some of the lyrics:

"Working hard to get my fill
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice just one more time

Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the night

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'"

ok, so the lyrics are kinda cheesy =), but for me it spoke to what I was feeling and reminded me how cheap and easy it can be to get the quick fix - the false sense of joy and inner fulfillment. It was a reminder to stay present, to stay in the feeling, to stay connected to my inner most sense of who I am and find the joy and fulfillment there.

With love,
Jen

Thanks again for the article. Note: When I click on 'Feedback Loops' I get a Page not found.

It's even worse when it's a subconscious expectation ie. one you are not aware off.
So just take a quick breather, ahh, and then let's. Go.
But I'll stay here.
Dunoo what I'm chatting about, again.
This article's beautiful!
And so is Trigonometry, the Greeks knew they left something worth while.
Mentality and Emotionality, here they mix;
So let's watch!
WOOAAAAAHHH

Thank you so much for all you do. Synchronisity certainly was the instrumental factor in leading me to find you, right after a catastrophic event in my life. I really needed to connect with you...and with the community of Openhand.

Hi Open
Your video is beyond beautiful. The pure emotion in each word as you talk are indescribable. The energy has the ability to rid all thoughts of depression, sorrow, pain, hatred and regret. It gives me the strength to climb every mountain and view the world from below. It gives me the courage to be strong for loved ones. It gives me the patience to love and cherish every moment.
Love & Blessings

Hi Open,
I feel the synchronicity of me been presented with " bullies" had plunged me into the density. I have gone deep into the tightness and I feel I'm coming up now. In my former life "the old Ruth" would have taken the path of least resistance that is with my ex husband and his controlling tactics I gave my power away so I felt safe,but the consequence were my self worth suffered. However now "the new Ruth" even though I have felt like giving up my job and running away due to similar behavior by a colleague I have confronted myself and my situation. I don't feel I have had total release yet, but I know I am rising up out of the depths of hell and Im releasing blockages and old behavior patterns. Been in the flow and having negative synchronicity is an amazing learning process when the penny drops. I asked myself why has this situation was been presented to me again what did I not learn from the previous time in my old life when I divorced my husband and also escaped his disapproving mother? I suppose the lesson is I was still attached to my old belief systems the same buttons were been pressed and I could be "bullied" or at least I thought I could. As I said I'm not there yet, but I'm not far from liberation as-well I can feel it! I don't think I shall have any more trouble from my colleague which is not only good for me, but for the rest of the team and maybe for her she has been given an opportunity for growth anyway that is her path.

Love Ruthxx

I have watched the video about synchronistic flow a few times before but I was 'synchronistically" directed to watch it again now, click, click, click and there I was watching, no intention, no finding, just there.

It is so relevant to what is happening in my life at the moment and the way things are moving in a kind of flow. It truly felt like you'd made the video with me in mind specifically lol. I was doubting, enormously, that I was feeling anything, feeling pretty lost and sad and then I was led to watch this again and a whole new understanding arose in me so unlike the first few times I watched it.

I have been desperate to see 'signs' but still knowing that seeking them was not the way to go. I needed to feel to release the outcome of my situation, to let it go completely, something that mentally I knew to do but energetically was not understanding.....now I get it! My trust has returned. Everyday life and situations so often block the signals of the natural flow of things for me. It's like a roller coaster, I seem to have to ride it to the end before I can readjust and feel the flow again.

I love to listen to both you and Trin, you have such a way of highlighting and explaining all that I feel in a way that makes me say 'heh, you're so right!' It's a wonderful gift, of the stating the obvious but not, if you know what I mean :) and sharing it with others for their higher good and I love Openhand for doing that and facilitating changes in me for the better.

Thank you, please keep doing what you're doing x

Thank you Open for reminding me:
"Sometimes when nothing is flowing is to be in the flow." I am grateful every day for the Openhand community. Joann

Great video, Open! Yes, it captures a certain joyful, playful, expansive state. Thanks for sharing that.

I've heard the idea of multi-dimensionality mentioned many times over the last 2 years, but I'm still a bit mystified as to what it actually is. I guess I haven't experienced it yet for myself.

Can you elaborate some more?

What are "higher dimensional experiences"? Can you give some examples?

Blessings,

StarHawk