ocd = implants and imprints?

Hi,

I feel very ashamed about this ... but that will not stop me from posting...

Where to start?

I have read your recent article on WakeUpWorld, the one about removing implants and imprints from our field and found it very helpful and comforting. Thank you.

I have been suffering from ocd (obsessive compulsive disorder) for a very long time. The symptoms have been very complicated and I will not describe them in this post (I might later).
Shortly, it has been about being superstitious and feeling like I must perform rituals (repeat things) or say prayers or mantras to protect people etc.
Generally speaking, it has been very distressing, tightening and debilitating. I believe that such mental illesses are caused by implants.

For a long time I believed that it might be about spirit attachment (didn´t have much knowledge about implants). But this idea with implants makes much more sense in my case as I feel it like a part of my mind. Like something that has been deeply affecting my mental body.
I have faith that I am healing and recovering from that. It is a very slow process, though, and I believe that your article explained why – it has imprints and so I should be patient.

In the past I was to a psychologist and they couldn´t help me – send me to a medical doctor to get a prescription medication. I fortunatelly didn´t go there and didn´t take prescription drugs.
I focused on discovering what is beyond that and tried services of a few healers. Some of them pointed me in the right direction (for example said I had an opening in my field behind my head, or confirmed my feeling that there was something behind my ears...).
Removal of entities was only temporary, of course, bacause what is really needed is releasing the hook – the emotional reason that attracted entities / allowed any implants to be implanted.
In my case it is a tendency to worry. ... So I discovered that many symptoms of the ocd illness eleviated after I experienced my fear as bodily sensations (that is a way of a permanent release).
However, my problem seems to be being blocked to experiencing fear fully. And so I still do have some symptoms, especially getting false memories (for example that I said something I didn´t). Then I feel a lot of confusion and cannot think clearly.
I have realised that one of mistakes I have been doing is trying to „fix myself as quickly as possible“, „resolve those problems“ (when in reality there are none) – for example I try to remember what I said ... and then repeat the mantra or the prayer again – then I feel like a fool – and then have doubts again...

What I do now is I am focusing on being the witness, the observer. Just observing myself having those impulses, doubts, worries, and sometimes saying those prayers. Observing myself with compassion and patience (like: „ok, so I had this symptom again. It was just that illness and I am in the healing process.)

I have made a lot of research on that. It is known that also brain chemistry on the physical level is affected by that. So I care consciously about taking enough nutritiens that my nervous and immune system needs. I am also doing some things to detox (ocd might have been also the result of chemtrails . But I am not sure about that.)

I believe that deeper level is in our energy body. And primary root is in unhealed emotions (the hook) in the sufferer.

Regarding energy body, I have been feeling shifts behind my ears – of release and that is great. ... and another thing is my gallbladder meridian feels uncomfortable when I lie on it (it seems to be getting better now already too). And so I was searching some information about the maridian and found an article about gallbladder meridian being a place where implants can be implanted (if the person is weakened in a way). In the article they called it parasities.

On the physical level, I seem to have parasities as well. I eat quite a lot. That is so shameful .(especially when I feel a lot of tightness I use it as a way to comfort myself – or to numb myself – also because of other reasons, not just ocd.)
My diet is vegan, trying to eat enough fresh fruits, avoiding rafined sugar and wheat. However, I crave carbohydrates so I eat also millet, rise, potatos.

Once I completely understand what it has been about and heal myself fully, I might help people with similar diagnosis. Ocd can have many different forms. And I think that also many other mental illnesses are caused by implants/entities.

I have also other emotional issues that attract psychic attack to me. For example the lack of self-love (that is behind ocd as well), being perfectionist and and being too irritable .

I have listened to Trinity´s meditation on releasing the blind spots and found it helpful and comforting as well. Thank you.

I have been slowly gaining love of self, focusing on doing things I like, things that make me stop thinking and rather focus on feeling the present moment.
However, I often feel heavy, held back.

Do you have any experience with that? Also if you have any insights that could help me I will be very grateful.
Thank you for taking your time to read this post.

Namaste,

Natalia