Solstice Approaches: KNOW what you want to change about YOURSELF

So so beautiful, thanks to AA Metatron! Deciding since my kitty companion's death it's time to start broadening my horizons so despite financial constraints i'm working on getting my passport and getting to a retreat sometime in 2023, and hoping to catch the UK one for this reason; that countryside beckons! Working through lots of density lately and realizing my job just takes too much and i've been trying to work out a way to reduce my workdays from 5 to 4 with the sole intention of making that extra day "self care day" but really it's "Soul care day" to do the things my soul loves: yoga, nature, and that pesky meditating which i'm struggling with. It's hard to be still when you can't/won't let go or even have time. But i persist nonetheless and that day willgive me the time and opportunity to go deeper. So i feel like this is a synchronistic message to do it, take the time, it's so much m9re important and worth it than mundane day jobs that suck the life out of you. Worth a go i think. Thanks Open! Brightest solstice blessings! ❤️😊🙏

Hi Open,

whenever thinking about the new year I am being filled with happiness and joy. It's like after seven years of Africa, of spiritual apprenticeship, of being on my spiritual mountain in my inner cave, now is the time to come all the way down, and to realise myself within society. A new start back in Germany. This is the time.

I didn't sleep much at night because there was so much inspiration flowing in, my mind was just spinning around. There is a feeling of adventure - where will I live and how will I live and with whom? How will my facilitation service grow and blossom once I start it? And how will Openhand shape in the next year?

I'm feeling like I am a child in wonderland, so much to discover and experience 🤗

So much curiosity.

Much love to you and everyone in Openhand, this year was beyond amazing,
Thomas 🍀

Hi Open, thank you for this invitation to share. I totally concur with Thomas. I'm filled with adventure, curiosity and excitement. I'm allowing this feeling to blossom without getting locked in the mindloops. I have come back to stay with my family for a few days and i can see how how I have changed over the past few months. There is more surrender into the sacred ground and less reaction to the external. I can see it because I have a reference point of how I was when I was here only few months back. Every new challenge is an opportunity to surrender into the soul and uncover new gifts of beingness. Every challenge is an opportunity to let go of something which is no longer relevant. Yesterday I went to the nearby favorite spot to meditate by the river , conduct ceremony for the new version of me which wanted to emerge. I saw two synchronistic interplays there. Few people conducting rituals for their parents who passed away and few teenagers celebrating one of their birthdays nearby. It spoke to me about this rebirthing process. 

I have been feeling this deep calling to take off once again and travel but this time a little different. I'm giving the control to the divine and to be taken care by the magic of the soul. The motivation is to explore different facets of myself and to let go of that which doesn't serve. I'm taking my expressions with me and want to see how it evolves through the process. I want to see how I grow as a facilitator and express more authentically through music, videos and writings. Im giving myself permission to make mistakes, be lost at times but trust that I will learn something about myself through all of it. 

Dear Open,

I have been busy since just the day before Christmas as my very star-seed child has decided she wants to stay with me and not her father . I took her along to my 25 year old medical school reunion which was also a reconnection with some wonderful friends. 

This is after I seperated last year and along with the tonnes of stuff I was processing ,"losing" my only child had been the most difficult. In a span of a year ,with zero manipulation or discussion from my side ,this teenager saw through the drama beautifully. She is now back with me and it is so beautiful interacting with her. Without needing to soften what I recognise were pretty toxic circumstances with her Dad ,I am able to be myself with her and vice versa. She is such a light ,it's a pleasure to have her company . 

Her arrival has prompted my landlord to ask me to leave . So I am now in the midst of moving as well ( from a flat numbered 406 in Tower 1,to 203 in Tower 7 - the numerology is interesting :))

I am also dealing with supporting my Mom as she negotiates a knotty land deal with integrity and a move away from this city .My relationship with her had been sketchy from my teens and yet there has been much reconciliation in the past few months as I have learnt to speak my truth and draw boundaries despite her domineering/ controlling tendencies . We are very heartfully connected now and I understand her as she does me so much better. 

This feels very much like karma is being dissolved . The land deal is of my departed father's ancestral land . Again feels very, very karmic . 

Shifts all around in the 3 D sense are upon me .

I am often overwhelmed with these massive changes around me in living circumstances and relationships . Through this I have been tapping into my masculine . Learning to be steadfast and strong despite the multitude of day to day challenges being thrown at me . 

I am trying to ,through this storm,stay centered within. Ironically ,I am the primary emotional support for many through this period of transition . In that too I am being careful to be crystal clear about my boundaries and discerning where I am giving my energy .  

 I am also learning to channel my authentic anger into creativity rather than self blame. . Again ironically I am in a very supportive relationship with a man at the moment. And he seems to have been propelled on a massive journey fraught with disillusionment in relationships as a result of our connection. Again keeping boundaries and allowing people their lessons . 

It's the best of times and the worst of times . I pause and breathe several times a day. As also DANCE. As also shake with anxiety . And become a puddle of grief. I feel like I am living several lifetimes at the same time. 

Open,you said something about how parents wanting to protect their kids keeps l them and the children in limbo . And I can feel that is what I was doing unconsciously earlier . Those lines written around the New Year were tremendously evocative for me .

Just sharing my journey . It's a particularly fast paced one right now ,with each day bringing its own challenges .

I wish everyone in the Openhand community a transformative journey in 2023 ! 

Megha