5D Consciousness: How Best to Interpret Signs and Synchronicity

Still, the dogs are barking at me. I can hear them from a far distance. When I reached home after my purchase, the bag of rice rice tore and collapsed at my doorstep. I know it's saying something but I don't know what. I feel a great change in me. But still I feel the fear/tension when I spent each penny( it has reduced but still it's there). My inner configuration is changing, I'm becoming vulnerable as a baby along with a lot of sadness and fear.

I went outside to buy an article for me to remember my commitment in my journey and my connection with twin flame. I was attracted to a glass lotus, but I didn't buy it, I didn't even ask the price , because I thought it would be priced more then what I have. I don't know why I did that? I could have atleast ask the price? Once again im confirming to universe that I can't have things. When I tune inwards I don't see I'm lacking anything. Something is happening when I go out. I couldn't find anything and ended up buying grocery and sweets. I nneed to work with this ssituations.

Where am I? What's my current state? During the first two days of the retreat, I felt like a muddy water, no light, no clarity. Now I could atleast see, that im in the middle of a high voltage streaming twinflame consciousness and a potential karmic pastlife. A stage of processing and integrating. I'm seeing the numbers 44 and 88 all around, pointing the karmic construct which appearing externally my struggles with resources. When I contemplate at a wider level, the meeting of high vibrational avalonian energies and the old karmic construct of Earth leading to massive changes reflecting as Volcamic eruptions and earthquakes. Is Avalonia a closest reflection of Gaia's Twinflame? The physicality of earth is changing. YES, the games are changing.

At an individual perspective, the small I in me is afraid. Afraid of how it's gonna be in it's relationship with others. That's a big thing. But it's know there is no going back. Because everything is changing internally

I made a small altar at one corner of our bedroom. It felt really good. Its a small symbol of my commitment. I need a few more things to keep my crystals and Ganesha, it will come to me soon.

Feeling Grateful to be a part of this grand shift.🙏

NB:I have edited this post a couple of times because the way I see things are changing. A Change from victimisation to self empowerment.

Thank you

Soumya

I discovered in my thirty's that I am dyslexic. It has been a function I have learned to compensate for even tho I still go right when I am told left. I noticed last night while passing the time with a hidden object game ... when I had a preconceived idea of what an object should look like ... I couldnt find it. It was only when I slowed down and focused on seeing the objects that were actually there vs what I was trying to find. Sounds like an obvious thing to do but it was a clear reflection of distortion in my perceptions. I have conditioned myself well enough to process information given, deduce an acceptable answer with the goal to be considered correct. I adapted to this process because my version was rarely accepted and feelings are not allowed. I conformed to the simulation and I did it well. Free wheeling is like stepping into another dimension ...to stop identifying what I think is there and allow myself to slow down and be with what isnt immediately identifiable. It is literally reprogramming my mind. As an empath I feel but its distorted to support the mind. When I genuinely let go into the flow it makes little sense. Its exciting and frightening to let go of the conditioned mind. To allow myself to come out of the protective cage I have built. Maybe that is the synchronicity of seeing the devas in a cage. I am in one too. Time to open the door!

A white crow came to me in meditation. I was this white crow. Then I heard: “Why do you always have to think you’re so special. Why can’t you just be ok with being a black crow?” and I thought, right, humility, stop with that old ISIS priestess superiority program, let’s just be a black crow. But wait... Being a white crow is NOT about being superior to others, is it? There is so much judgment in that. I love black crows, I think they are awesome creatures! Hold on... What if I am really supposed to be a white crow but deny my true nature because of this judgment that white crows are better than black crows and I shouldn't feel better than anyone else? They are almost funny, these deviations of the mind! Ughhh...

In the end, though, I am neither a white or a black crow. These are only reflections. In many cultures, a white crow is a sign of profound transformation and change. Yes, ok, that is a nice confirmation of what I am currently feeling, but it is not complete. Then I made the connection to the need for external validation I was playing with in meditation earlier and it clicked. I believe this white crow showed up as a powerful sign not to embrace their individuality, but to embrace my own.