Since posting above about my recent experience with my precious child, my awareness has been deepening about what's behind my strong emotions and what some would call an over-the-top reaction to a minor incident. Yet it pulled me down into a black hole of anguish and despair beyond what I can capture in words. My heart felt completely shattered, and I didn't have enough tears to express the loss I was feeling.

I feel now that I'm experiencing a karmic regression around the horrific loss of my child through OC intervention long, long ago.

The person I was feeling so pissed at this week was separated from her son who was adopted when she was only a teenager. So now I'm understanding her longing to connect to my child although that doesn't mean that I accept her manipulative behaviour. However, my heart is opening up to her with compassion and forgiveness.

It's really, really hard for my loved ones to understand what's going on when it appears my reaction is so out of proportion and I appear to be "crazy". I have been judging myself for being crazy, too. Now that I'm digging much deeper into the darkness and connecting the dots down through the eons, I'm better equipped to heal my karmic experience of the tragic and traumatic separation of a loving mother from her precious child, the essence of which is reverberating in this lifetime.

I felt to share further about this since I'm sure I'm not the only one out there who might relate to what I'm experiencing. Perhaps it will help others to heal.

x Cathy