Cathy, your karmic regression felt experiencing makes me feel warm inside and very inspired!
Let me say that I do not directly relate to your story because I do not have children and never felt the need for a child. BUT I relate to the desire to protect who we love and the feelings of immense loss in being separated from the ones we love in this and other lifetimes and in whatever conditions. In my case, it’s mostly the unspeakable grief I feel for the loss of animals and the Earth. Is this karmic? May be it is.
I have found Francis Weller’s insights on grief very heart warming. Here is one I love from his book: “Whatever the experience, grief offers a revelation: in the midst of great loss, we find ourselves in the presence of the sacred … the darkness we enter when we are overwhelmed by the swell of grief is a place of belonging … Learning to befriend the darkness offers us a holding space where we are able to do the necessary work of metabolising sorrow … Coming to trust the darkness takes time and often involves many visits to the land. Our arrival here is rarely a chosen thing … What we make of this visit is up to us. Recalling that the darkness is also a dwelling place of the sacred allows us to find value in the descent. In this place of lightness, we develop a second sight”.
Your karmic regression sharing is a beautiful illustration of the above: of courage, deep understanding, strength and boundless heart in engaging with the ‘darkness’. An illustration of the process of recognising the sacred in darkness and the opening that comes from all that (second sight). Thank you again for this sharing.

Much love