I feel to drop a note about where I am after a lot of processing, and sure more to come. Changes are going on, on all levels. Physically I am clearing a lot. At work I start to notice differences with collegues softening up, taking more time and processes are flowing more easily. On the mental plane I am in overdrive, that is why I felt to push the pause button , it was in need of a reparation. Yesterday felt like the end of the world was there for me and I didn't really expect to come up again. I went through karmic process, relationship issues and thought I went psychotic. I also managed to soften and stay present and breathe although it was not easy. I feel shaky and vulnerable now, but also determined and clear. Honesty, soft surrender and steel trust are crucial for me.

I learned a lot in the heaviest night of my life. Now first is to breathe, to soften, to ask for help, stay in connection. Big hugs for the Openhand Community, I could not have done it without you !