Hi Open,

Yep it's stressful without a doubt. I feel excited sometimes and guess I get to be too much for some people and they take things the wrong way. I don't get it and it does make my heart feel very sad. I do the chakra opening of lower chakras (and all others too) and do invite the benevolent energies for my best and highest good to come in and many times I feel extreme anxiety. It's scary how the 3D is becoming more dark all the time. The approximately 10 yrs. to reach the point where I can move to the 5D seems like a monumental, unreachable time frame and task. I feel I'm so not ready and I think that's what panics me sometimes.

So I've been decluttering tons of stuff that I'd just left in bags and boxes after moving to this house. It feels better to get rid of it for sure. More to do and I'm doing it daily. I feel like a total misfit on this earth, as I guess a lot of us do. My laptop is barely working from constant updates and huge files being downloaded into the Google play store which I never use, so if my computer does crash, not even sure I can get another one at t his point so for now I'm also missing the zooms. Google has issues with that too. Things are getting old and worn out... like I feel many days now. I think the solar flares and things are also having the physical effect on me.

But I do work to lose all the labels I've had all my life. Just be the real me and flow into the kundalini activation and whatever else is needed. Nothing seems easy for sure and everything "seems" to be hard but I guess that's the soul changes breaking open so I can awaken more. Jeez, it's the hardest thing I've ever done!

So that's where I'm at right now and I just want to cry for all those losing their functions and memories and dying and going away. I rarely do cry though, maybe I need to let that out? I do feel alone now, where it never used to bother me at all. I guess the main stress is, I see the signs, synchronicities, the future landing now many times and yet feel inferior and not able to get it and grow fast enough. Maybe that's some thought being planted in my thoughts and I tell myself those are not my thoughts. Fear of being left behind would be an awful thing. I don't want to stay on the cycle of karmic lifetimes over and over again.

Still working on everything.... thank you for the constant articles, posts, sharing of the videos and the podcasts. They help me a lot, even if it lasts just temporarily and then I go back to anxiety again before long and have to keep rereading your articles over and over until it sinks in and stays there.

Much love to you and everyone, surely it'll all work out and I'll go beyond the 3D. I'm sure willing! (I'm sure you're reading all that panic hanging around in my article today. I'm in a low place...)

Sherri