Hello everyone,

I am right there with you Alex; this is quite the etheric retreat. Jeez Louise there's a lot coming up. The Super Blood Wolf Moon Eclipse deal was not messing around.

Open, you asked us to explore and share our experience with your recommended Poverty Consciousness meditation, so I'm going to do that. Same as before – this started out as a simple sharing but I keep feeling drawn to share the full guts of what is going on for me because a) I can feel we are ALL going through similar processing together, and b) the creative process of writing process really helps me integrate. So if you guys don’t feel like going down a dramatic rabbit hole this is the place to stop reading. :)

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First off, I had a dream last night that I was doing specific spiritual work with you, Open, and my daughter was with me. But my parents wanted to see her at a specific time, and you had a special meditation you wanted me to do - exactly when I was supposed to drop her off with them. I was feeling massively torn between responsibility to my own child and my own spiritual growth, and that's when I woke up. I completely forgot the dream as the 3D world settled in around me.

Later on yesterday I tuned in here and I honestly didn't feel like I resonated with the topic of poverty consciousness that much, and almost didn't follow through on the meditation; thinking maybe I'd revisit it again at a later date when drawn to. I've always seemed to have a fair amount of trust in my ability to attract resources; if anything I've dealt more with guilt and not wanting the responsibility of having to distribute significant power and resources. That is changing and I feel like I’m transitioning into a Soul aligned conduit to share resources for the benefit of all, so if the Universe wants to provide me with a "wind"fall, I would embrace that responsibility as a gift. It feels more meaningful to share this truth now, especially since I’m about to be "unemployed" having resigned from my job to explore new directions. (!)

The actual meditation experience:

I completely fell asleep and didn't have much awareness for the entire Ascension meditation. Even though I was sitting with limited back support I still managed to somehow pull this off. I might have been floating with 144,000 angels for a pocket eternity for all I know. BUT when I came out, I was definitely feeling Connected and noticed multiple synchronicities in Nature that aligned with the thoughts and feelings coming through.

Following the instructions and settling into the music for the sailing imagery, it took me deep immediately.

I was completely alone in space floating slowly through the still darkness in a small rowboat type of ship. I sat up and looked behind at the ship’s wake, which was streaming behind it in a small golden V.

Then I noticed several frozen greyish-white bodies surrounding the boat… and then saw more… and still more of them.

And then there were so many they blotted out the entire darkness of space.

And some of them, zombie-like with creaky joints and bones, were grasping onto the ship and hanging on. And then I realized… that some of these bodies I knew.

They were ghosts of old relationships which had already ended or are drawing to a close.

I didn’t want to see but Looked anyway.

Some were close Family.

And their Paths weren’t going where mine was.

After the initial shock, waves of grief hit as I experienced heart ripping pain in the left side of my heart space.

Then I saw all the past poignant moments of Love and Life within these relationships and it feels like my body is tearing apart from the middle of my chest.

The pain in my heart and gut and throat and forehead were unbearable and I’m screaming and calling for help, but I’m all alone in the boat.

I resign to my fate and lay down in my boat (in 3D my car seat goes all the way back) to just be in the loneliness and let it wash through me. The sense of responsibility hits that it’s MY fault I’m abandoned and alone. And after an indefinite time, I finally notice another presence. There are two female members of my soul family holding me.

I look over to my right and reach out with my hand, and I see my Soul Mate laying in Her boat – and Our boats are going in the same direction. Her hand reaches back out to mine and We are united in Our direction.

And my awareness zooms out and I notice then that there are 12 of us, all in our own boats – all streaks of light streaming in unison towards a common destination. Going away from a worn out earth to a new place. And then zooming out further, I saw MANY more subsets of 12 – all of us streaming away from the old construct as sparks of Light.

Individuals Together.

I suddenly snapped back into 3D. It was exactly 12:12, and a blue jay was sitting on a branch staring directly at me. Silently, just looking. And there were sirens in the distance, and both car visors said in big block letters WARNING – and oh please no God… there’s more to let go...

The image of the future I’d always wanted and dreamed of, with my wife, my kids, a house filled with love, beautiful land in communion with the earth, love and family and old age… it is all stripped away and I see the pain and fear in Their eyes. And I grieve for a future I’m afraid I will never know and They will never have.

And I ask from the depths of my burned down heart please please PLEASE they deserve this life they deserve this life….. just let me take care of Them. Please let me help my family. I need to know they will be OK. Let me give them the security and freedom to love and live the life They want and need. If it’s aligned, Please.. I want to give Them this gift so badly it hurts…

The higher communication lands: “Now that you Know your time is limited, you can Honor Them with every moment and every breath – honor every minute of the sacred space of your home and the sacred gift They are giving You. For They are allowing You to be You.”

A text comes through in 3D, and it is the Universe letting me know They will be supported in Its own way. Then a single squirrel came and showed off, jumping from tree to tree.

His energy told me, “Play. Play with them! Your sense of humor and joy for life is what They love most about you. Follow your destiny and meet it for Them. In this, You honor Them.”

I look to my left and the silent blue jay is staring at me again.

Whew.

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I take a breather, and then put on “Ride Like the Wind…”

…And turned facing forwards in my boat and saw the energy I’d gained from my past experiences filling the sail and lighting up my Future. There is nothing in front of me but Light and my boat is streaming towards it, as tears are streaming down my face.

A communication surprisingly lands out of nowhere: “It’s OK to have nice things – you don’t need to be an ascetic!”

“The Universe loves You for You - and You have shown and are showing how much You love It.”

A text brings me back to 3D again - it’s a former client with just two words:

“Game On”

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Last night I awoke to a different text at 12:55am, from one of my best friends who has been like a brother to me for 25 years. He was letting me know that his Dad had passed away that day. That he just wanted to reach out and share that with me, and that he and his family were OK.

As I was writing this today he texted me again. No words - just this link:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=YNqo4Un2uZI

I felt a very strong pull to share it with all of my Family here - it gave me a lot of strength and I hope it helps light up all of the 12’s on the Path.

So much Love to all of You,

Paul ❤️