Dear Yulia and Open ,

I am writing here to share a very interesting experience after attempting be with and equalize with the very dense energy I feel in my heart Chakra. In South Africa I had seen how I had a deep fear of child birth because a child had died, my soul mate and I had died of heartbreak leaving behind my present husband and daughter. A layer relating to my guilt around these events dissolved and I am able to relate to my husband with aot more truth. The subconscious feeling of ' owing' him something has disappeared since then .

I felt deep grief once I felt into this very dense energy. And as I stayed with it diligently something very interesting happened.

I attended the delivery of twin babies born to a mum who lost her 21 year old boy to a traffic accident. They decided to conceive babies and on 3rd January ( the day the last child died) one of the twins started having a decreased blood supply in the womb.

Yesterday despite excellent management he was already dead at time of delivery. It is almost as if the entire scenario played itself out. Better still, the man I know to be my son in that life was in the same room. I was shaken and stirred and have attempted to again just Be with these emotions. Given my profession, this seems to be quite a key to karma in this lifetime.

As I sit typing this, I again see the Sparrow hawk. She has a nest here, and has swooped down to hunt for her babies.

Something my heart has lightened. Something has unraveled.

Thank you all

Megha