Breaking through insecurities. Breaking through self imposed limitation learned from the environment. Something in me is tired of playing it small and know there's a grander version of me wanting to emerge. I'm feeling the draconian energies but it is coming through as anger not to anyone but to the knowing that I have played so small for a lifetime.

I woke up today with a torture like karmix experience. I don't have much words to express this experience but this I have experienced many times since childhood and every time it deepens in sensitivity. It could also be projection by reptilian entities in the field where I see violent images. It's not physical or even emotional but mental chaos. I'm just being the witnesser seeing this played out. I invited the kali energy through the experience and something shifted after a while, release like oozing out from my field.

I have been having exploration around money and how the relationship with it has been so distorted, fearful, guilt ridden, limiting through out my life. Something in me is tired within this relationship. The limitations have been fueled by strong poverty conditioning from childhood, karma and spiritual identities. I witnessed many of this strongly being activated in the recent himlayan pilgrimage and it is being unwound. I was having severe digestion problems for the last many years. I think this has greatly improved after the retreat. Probably the after effects of dealing with the Lemurian karma, the fear of coming into physicality.

Im coming in terms with the unknown and what that brings. Surely it can't be worse than living in this limitation where the compassion towards others is distorted, where I'm afraid to set my boundaries and reclaim my power. I'm tired of giving away my base consciousness and natural inherent warrior energies. I dont know what is in store or how future will be like and I don't want to know. I have been witnessing intervention consciousness conveniently projecting visions and imaginations to keep in the box of smallhood. I feel like I'm gonna live my life the way I want it and not on somebody else's terms!

Vimal 🙏