In meditation today I felt the loosening up of this energy in me. For me, its playing out as an attachment to an outcome, needing resolution, sucess etc. A large part of it is based on the need to survive and thrive. I can also see how the energy needs dende foods. But my mind is also confused in this aspect because im exceptionally thin because of intermittent fasting. On one hand I would like to experience the benifts of fasting but I wonder if its for everyone.

It's a huge revelation to realise this as an energy playing out in me and not my inherent nature . I think this is an important part of why I resonate with openhand approach and why it's effective. I think when we realise the truth in it and the yearning to realign , it's much more effective to do so.

I can see how it's the quality of commitment and passion which is getting distorted. I can see it's negative effect and ineffectiveness of attachment to the energy and that's where the yearning to realign comes from. The negative effects is that it kills spontaneity, unpredictability, joy and ultimately passion itself.

Interesting, as I let go of a part of this energy I could feel the softness and joy and there was a lot of synchronistic reflection to support that. A friend called me and told a lot about his spontaneous travel around india into various tribes and how humbling that journey was for him. When I travelled like that there was a genuine yearning to settle in one place for some time and channel my energy in my passion and calling. But I'm also seeing how it breeds routine and rigidity. So im inquiring into how I can find uncertainty within this certain life for a period of time. At the same time, there is a yearning to 'throw it all away' and hit the road again. All in its time, I have to wait and see.

In relationship, I could see the same dynamic for a while. In there I was embodying more of reptilian in certain situations and pleadian in other. So it's a complex dynamic. Because of many limitations we felt to live seperately. There is more love than ever now! But the mind also thinks financially it's viable if we live together. Financial co dependency is something to watch for. I wonder if it's possible to financially support another without any expectation. Only because we genuinely see how the support is helping them in their spiritual journey. What is your view on this?

Megha, I wonder if you have seen the movie, Darlings. It depicts wonderfully this dynamic within a relationship. I was surprised to see the frog, scorpion parable being mentioned in that movie.

Open, is fear of the unknown also a trait of thr distorted reptilian energy? I find myself often predicting the future, even like years ahead. This gives the mind a feeling of safety. If I can predict my environment, I feel safe and know how I'm going to survive in this world. I think this can also diminish creativity and spontaneity to a great degree. How to work with this? Especially when the situations support such predictability. For example I made a contract by word of mouth that I will be staying here for a year. In a way it's quite safe and comfortable. But I also like the feeling of not knowing where I will be and what I will do. The answer that comes to me is to entertain unpredictability where I'm, with activities like freewheeling for example..

Vimal 🙏