What is facilitating to me? The first thing that comes up for me, is the programming and conditioning that is constantly running in the background that keeps us all from true/aligned facilitating. We are all multidimensional beings with many layers to us.

I'm now realizing that my desire/yearning to help others and be of service is twofold. What has revealed itself to me, is that there is a part of me that is seeking validation for being a helper and rescuer to others. Please see me and validate me for being such a good helper. This way of being formed in childhood for me, it was a survival adaptation, learned in early life.

Fast forward into adulthood. This script was still playing out in my field. Please give me someone to help, fix and save (a bit grandiose). If I wasn't helping, fixing, rescuing or saving, I didn't exist.

To me this has been a great distortion that has been running its course within my being. This distortion lead me into all manner of relationships that were not reciprocal in nature. I would say shame was the driving force lying beneath this distortion. Anger and self-betrayal were the name of the game for me internally. And like a volcano, pressure built slowly over time. Something had to give, the tension was becoming too great!

This awareness has landed previously but I'm just now putting words to it. As I peel back the layers, fixed identities begin to fall away. I'm seeing things more clearly now. Especially my desire to be of service. I also realize that I have this genuine yearning to be of service, to anchor my being here and now.

As I zoom out and ask myself about facilitating now, a shift has occurred internally. It's less about doing to be seen and more about being coherent in every moment.

This story and script have been playing inside of my being for so long now. It has taught me many great lessons about how I show up in life. This realization didn't come from reading books it came from lived experiences.

I feel there is a facilitator buried in "All" of us waiting to reveal its gifts and awarenesses to be expressed and shared with the world. Who we are becoming and our new way of being is our facilitation to one another.

Becoming more clear mirrors for one another as we continue this unfolding journey.

Lastly, when I think about teaching yoga, breathwork, coaching and facilitating, it's less about all of these pathways and more about how I can be the most authentic version of myself in these experiences. It's taking me a bit to actually get to this place; I've been trying to fit myself into a matrix of doing when my soul is yearning to just be. Then all the labels and identities fall away.

To me facilitating is all about anchoring down into our being and holding space for the flow to move through without any effort or control. We go beyond the stories and the construct, dropping into pure presence of what is in any given moment.

As you mentioned Michelle, "To be held in an embrace that belongs to all of us". I feel this is where the magic happens. A lightness washes over my being, peace and contentment.

With love and gratitude,

Chad