To be honest, I feel like I passed Gateway 3 four years ago when I had some powerful energetic experiences and openings while still in the military. The experiences turned to terror shortly thereafter and have plunged me through so many layers of past life memories that I still can not distinguish what is real anymore. Some days I feel like I am at Gateway 4 and some days I feel like I am back at Gateway 1. As you say, it is not linear, and it is not circular, in my experience. It just is and my unique experience has been guided by a handful of beings that are telling me that they are even helping me write this because my understanding of the multiverse is still too timid to allow me to flow with my original feelings of greed and conquest that perpetuated the early part of my life. Now that I have settled down a bit, I feel like a daily practice is needed, but my inner desires still trump my spiritual path and lead me down pathways of guilt and depression (gateway 3) only to spit me out on the other side, with the help of benevolence, at Gateway 3/4. In the end, I am up and down, filled with terror still, and on the brink of collapse most days from wasting so much energy trying to keep my ego desires alive. I hope the journey will last a little longer because most days I just want death so as to emerge out of this body and be my true self. Being able to charge a glass of water with energy, and light up a whole room, seems so trivial now, and having already defeated hordes of reptilian energies and technologies has already left me bored and without purpose. While the gateways framework was necessary for me at an early stage of my development, I yearn for more to help me understand what really is going on in the meta/multiverse.

With Love and Gratitude,

Kyle